Foolish one

Chapter 69

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Look out for my new ficlet coming out later this week! Five chapters where Alexia is the love interest.

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It was a Friday in early December. The fifth of December to be exact. It had been three-and-a-half months since I gave birth. Alexia insisted that I would join her for practice.

I was scared.

Scared of leaving Martina alone and that something would happen to her while I wasn't there.

"I spoke with Jonatan. We can bring Martina with us" Alexia said with a smile. That was all she needed to say to convince me to join her.

I put my training kit on for the first time this season. "You look gorgeous" Alexia said as I walked into the living room. She walked closer and placed a kiss on my lips. Well, it was probably closer to a peck, only lasting for a second, but it reassured me that all would be fine. I had Alexia with me, and nothing could go wrong when she was by my side.

Her hand was resting in mine as we walked towards the car. Martina was fast asleep on Alexia's shoulder. Together, Alexia and I managed to put Martina in her car seat, and the three of us could begin our journey to training.

"It will all be fine" Alexia whispered as she drove. I usually sat in the back with Martina, but I needed to stay by my fiancé's side. I was a nervous wreck, not that I would be a big part of training. Maybe I would be allowed to join in with some of the easier exercises. I was not in good shape. Since giving birth, training was hard.

Every now and then, I managed to get out for a run, but I couldn't stay away for long. I always missed Martina too much. My body also didn't feel like it used to, everything was harder, and I got tired quicker.

Alexia rested her hand on my thigh, and I felt myself interlocking my fingers with her. A gesture of reassurance that told me she would always be there for me when I needed it.

"I'll take Martina" Alexia offered. I nodded, feeling uneasy. It was almost like I was on the brink of panicking. Maybe I was? I felt a lump in my throat, stopping the air from going down into my lungs. "I believe in you" Alexia whispered. She noticed how panicked I was and started to distract me from my own mind. Her words were quick, and a way for me to think about something other than the panic I was feeling.

I was grateful for Alexia. In a way I had never felt for someone else.

We walked into the changing room and the girls all flocked around Martina. They all loved her, and it made it easy for me to sneak inside. No one noticed the fact that I was wearing training clothes, and not regular clothes. Everyone was so busy with Martina. Everyone except Fridolina.

"Are you joining in today?" she asked with a smile. I nodded in her direction while tying my boots. "I can't wait to play with you. Mapí always talks about how you are one of the best center backs in the world" Fridolina said. This caused me to look up at her with a smile on her face. "We'll see if I even manage to do anything good" I confessed. "You shouldn't expect any miracles on your first training. Leave that to the second one" she joked.

Our conversation was interrupted by a bouncy Mapí who was incredibly happy that I was joining them today. "My favourite person is back" she yelled. Everyone in the locker room turned around to look at us.

I was bombarded with questions and happy squeals. They all seemed happy that I was coming back, happier than I felt.

Alexia held my hand as we walked out. Martina was off somewhere else, probably with Aitana or Mapí. "It will all be fine" Alexia whispered and kissed my cheek. But what if everything wasn't fine? Who knew if I would be able to come back? I found too much comfort in staying home with Martina. Yes, it was exhausting not getting enough sleep, but mentally it was lovely.