Our Sinful Love [C O M P L E T E D]

C H A P T E R 17

I THOUGHT I could fight my feelings as I saw Ace every day at the mansion. But as time goes by, my feelings for him return again. Masyado akong tanga 'di ba? Sinaktan na nga ako ng tao na'yon pero mahal ko pa rin siya. Nagsisisi ako ng husto dahil masyado akong nagpakalunod sa kanya.

It's hard, isn't it? When you love someone too much. Sinaktan kana pero sa tuwing nakikita at nakakasama mo siya bumabalik ulit yung nararamdaman mo para sa kanya. Ang hirap pigilan. Dapat galit ako sa kanya e, dahil iniwan niya ako. Pero ano ako ngayon? Heto, nagiging desperado na, dahil sa tang ina nararadaman kong ito!

“Are you going somewhere?” I asked. Kakasara lang niya ng Flower Shop. I looked up at the sky. May araw pa naman at hindi pa ito lumulubog.

“Wala naman na umuwi nalang tayo sa mansyon,” He say.

I frowned. It's still early for us to go home.

““Huwag muna tayo umuwi, masyado pang maaga. Let's hang out...” I'll invite him. Naisip ko lang kanina na ayain siya, tsaka minsan ko lang siya masolo kaya susulitin ko na.

He trailed off as if he was having second thoughts about my inviting him. Oh, c'mon Baby, pumayag kana.

“Saan naman tayo pupunta?” he innocently. Damn it! Ba't ang cute niya?! Para siyang bata na walang ideya kung saan kami pupunta.

Gumuhit ang ngiti ko sa labi dahil nahimigan na tila sumasang-ayon siya. Imbis na sagutin siya ay pinasakay ko siya sa kotse ko. Actually, I've been thinking about where we're going. And I'm sure he'll like it.

I Took him to the mall. At first it seemed like he was teasing me. Just wait Ace, I know you also miss the place where I will take you. Kumain muna kami sa restaurant. Pagkatapos, dinala ko na siya sa pupuntahan namin.

I look at him. I noticed that there were tears in his eyes. Tama ba ako nang nakikita? He still remembers? does he still love me? Kasi parang mahal pa niya ako. Hindi ganito ang reaksyon ng taong naka move-on na. So it's hard for me to believe that he has forgotten about being together. I feel like he still loves me, Ace loves me, he's just denying it!

“Did you like it?” I asked, nabuhayan ng dugo sa naging reaksyon niya.

He didn't answer but I knew he liked it. 

Inaya ko na siya pumasok sa loob. This day, I don't want it to end. Gusto ko ganito lang kaming dalawa. Iyong parang kami pa. Wala kaming ibang iniisip. Basta masaya lang kami. I miss this moment!

Pero sabi nila. Ang kaligayahan ay may kaakibat na kalungkutan.

I want to be mad with him, at me. But I have no rights, we're over. He's giving me a mixed signals and I fucking hate it! There's a days tht he makes me feel that we're fine. May araw naman na malamig siya sa'kin at bigla niya akong sasaktan gamit ang mga sinasabi niya. I don't understand him!

Fuck it, Vincent! Why are you still putting up with this?!

“Can we talk?”

“We are talking now,” I gently said. Damn it, where is your pride Vincent?! You weak asshole.

“I mean, mag-usap tayo ng masinsinin.”

I just looked straight at him.

I straightened up. “Alright, ano'ng pag uusapan natin?”

He walked towards me. And my damn heart is beating so fast! Kita ko ang paghugot niya ng hininga dahil don ay nakuryoso ako.

“Gusto ko lang magkaliwanagan tayo,”His first words. “After Mommy and Tito's wedding, I want us to act like real brother,” he said emphatically