Clueless / jg

chapter thirty four

*savannah's pov*

as i was closing my laptop i saw the door open. jack walked in with a plate of food and a water bottle. "i saw when you got home. i just wanted to give you some space." he said. i simply nodded and thanked him. he handed my the plate and sat beside me. i took a few bites while it stayed quiet. i wasn't hungry, so i took one last bite and set it on the table beside me.

"not hungry?" jack said. i shook my head. "i found a townhouse that i will be going to see monday after work. i don't know if we will be moving in together or you've found a place but i thought i should let you know." i said taking a sip of my water.

"savannah i want to be with you, i was going to talk to you about this but i need you to get better before putting you through more stress. if you end up liking the house let me know and i will help pay for it. i want us to be together, living together." he said. i truly feel like i don't give jack enough credit. he seems to really care about me and i always act like bitch about it.

"im sorry for overreacting." i said. "you didn't overreact, you had the right to feel the way you did. but just don't think we did it to spite you, we all want what's best for you." he said pulling me into a hug. once we pull away from the hug i see jack taking his shirt off and just left his shorts on.

"what are you doing? don't you guys have friends over?" i asked him. he starts to pull the sheets on top of us, it was only 7pm.. "i'll be with my friends for a whole month, but i won't with you. i just wanna be with you right now." he said. i smiled and kissed his cheek.

"i have to go out there and say sorry to nicole." i said, he sighed and nodded. i got up from bed to find nicole. once i was downstairs there was a bunch of guys i had never met. i see nicole is with julia. once we make eye contact i gesture for her to come to the kitchen where it's quiet. she nodded and walked towards me.

just as i was about to say something she hugged me, "nicole im sorry for how i reacted. i should've been more supportive and happy about it." i said. "savs it's okay it shows you care and i hate that i waited this long to tell you. i love you bestie." she says.

i hug her again, "i love you too. but i'll let you enjoy the party. i'm going back to my room." i said. "what why?" she asked. "i'm just not feeling the party right now." i shrugged. "okay if you need anything let me know." she said. i thanked her and walked towards the stairs. as i was walking up the stairs i hear my name being called.

i look back to see johnson, i smiled and waved at him. he follows me up the stairs. "hey bud what's up." i said. "i just wanted to check on you, everything okay?" he asked.

"yea everything is good." i smiled. "i just wanted to double check i hadn't seen you all day and i felt like it might've been because we all are moving out soon?" he said. i sighed, "i just didn't expect my friends to keep something like this from me.. like was i just going to wake up monday morning to see movers take things out the house.. but i understand don't worry about me." i said.

"savs it was best we handle things here while you had too much going on." he sighed. "i get it, its okay." i said. i said bye to johnson and walked to jacks room. jack was on his phone until he noticed me. i walked to to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth.

as i finished up i turned off the lights in the bathroom and walked back to bed. since it was still early, jack and i turned on a movie. i laid my head on jacks chest as he wrapped his arm around me, moments like these are the ones i'll be missing when he's on tour. i don't want to cry about this because it only adds to jacks worries about leaving me.

once the movie was done i noticed jack fell asleep. i wasn't tired yet so i got up and threw on a pair of sweats and my birkenstock clogs. i grabbed my phone and headed downstairs. looks like everyone left pretty early. the house was a mess. i would clean it but i kind of want some fresh air. growing up my mom would take me to get icecream and take me to the closest park. but since its too late for icecream i just got into my car and drove to the park.

i didn't know that my life would drastically change, but for now i need to learn how to improve it and become better. once i made it to the park, there we still a good amount of people out, it seems like there was a soccer game going on. i found a bench to sit and and just watched.

as i was looking around i made eye contact with someone i didn't want to. i don't get what he wants from me. i see he was walking towards me, i took a deep breath and let go of the anger i felt building up in me. he takes a seat next to me and smiles.

"savannah what are you doing out alone?" he said. "none of your business." i said. "i mean you are my daughter so technically yes it is." he said.

which made me laugh, "it's crazy that you're saying that when you haven't been a dad to me?" i said. he sighed, "i hate that i left you and your mom. i never thought i would've been a good father to you, i have so many regrets. leaving you when you were a baby is something i can never forgive myself for." he says.

i didn't say anything but continued to look straight. "all i wanted in life was to have my dad be there for me, i had to go through a shitty relationship and get attacked for you to show up in my life. i saw my mom cry for you asking what was it that she did for you leave her with a new born. at the same time im glad you did, she's stronger than ever now and i owe everything to her, i am who i am today because of her. if you want to try to be in life it's going to take a hell of long time." i said.

he sighed, "savannah. i hate that it took that for me to know something about you. i don't blame your mom from keeping you from me because you turned out amazing. i want us to get to know each other and i want to know everything i missed." he said placing his hand on my shoulder.

i looked at him and pushed back. "i'll give you this one chance for you show up as a dad and actually want what's best for me. you can't come back into my life and try to change it or how i live it. but for now, i'll be okay with us getting to know each other.

he smiled softly and nodded. i turned to look at him, and just examined him. i hated that we had such similar features. his skin was a fair color and he had hazel eyes. just like me. he reaches out for a handshake. "hi my name is Alejandro, nice to meet you." he says with a goofy face. 

i reached for the handshake and smiled softly, "hi Alejandro my name is Savannah and i am your daughter." i said. never once did i think i would say that in a peaceful way.

he pulled me into a tight hug and a part of me wanted to pull myself away but the other part of me had been waiting for this moment and i think he felt the same. i heard him crying softly. we pulled away and he wiped away his tears.

"wait i forgot to ask you, what are you doing at the park at this time?" i asked because i was genuinely confused why we both were here. "none of your business" he says mocking me and laughing. okay i see where i get my sarcasm from.

"im just kidding, i usually like to come out here when i need fresh air to think." he said. i gasped, just knowing little things from him i can see where i get them from. i nodded, "well it's getting late i should get home now." i said.

he nodded, we exchanged numbers and went our separate ways. i looked through my notifications and as expected they blew up my phone. i got into my car and drove home.

all the lights were on in the house, it's currently midnight so i know everyone is awake.