Clueless / jg

chapter thirty eight

*savannah's pov*

i woke up the next morning to feel the bed empty. but i clearly remember last night jack slept here. i got up from bed and went to the bathroom. i did my business and brushed my teeth and washed my face. i went back into the room and started digging through my bag.

i changed into some denim shorts with a gray tight shirt, i put on some white socks and my sambas. i grabbed my purse and phone and headed out. i walked towards nicole's room and softly knocked. once she answered she let me in and told me to keep it down since sam was asleep.

"oh wow i didn't think you'd be up and ready." she said. i chuckled softly, "well i didn't know what the plan was so i just got dressed." i said. "well sam wants me to meet his parents today since they are going out of town and i won't get to see them." she said.

"aww that's cute, well good luck let me know how it goes!" i said. which means now i don't know what to do, im sure julia is going to johnson's house as well. "what about you? is jack taking you to his parents?" she asked.

i chuckled which caused her to look at me weird, "yea i don't think so. we talked last night, he slept over but when i woke up he was gone. he also didn't text me or anything." i said shrugging. she sighed, "i don't know what's going on with him, it's not fair to you." she says.

"well not much i can do. but don't worry about me i'll explore on my own." i smiled. "i can meet up with you later." she said. i shook my head, "no don't worry! i'll be fine." i said. i walked to the door and said goodbye.

days like this when i don't have anyone to hang out with make me want just stay in my room and not do anything. which seems like the best thing to do. i walked back to my room and unlocked the door. i laid my purse down on the table and started to undress and change into comfy clothes.

luckily i brought my laptop so i could do some work and watch netflix after. as for work, i've been taking several photo shoots for brand deals outside of victoria secret so i had to take pictures or videos to promote companies. i decided to work on editing those and posting some.

after about an hour of editing, i was able to finish a couple of them. so i went ahead and posted my collab with fabletics. they sent me a bunch of matching workout sets so i posted a few of the ones i took in them. while those posted i walked up to the mini fridge to get water. i took a sip and laid back down.

i decided id order some coffee and a bagel from dunkin. i placed my order and unfortunately it didn't have the option to bring to room so id have to go down to the lobby. for the meantime i turned on netflix and turned on my favorite show Young Sheldon, it became one of my go to shows after the break up since i didn't go out other than work.

i watched on episode of Young Sheldon when i got the notification that my order was here. i slipped on my clogs and grabbed the hotel key. i got into the elevator and made it to the lobby. as i was getting out the elevator i bumped into jack, he look happy. until i saw blonde girl with him, Jenna. he looked at me and his faced dropped.

i didn't know what to feel, i wanted to cry but at the same time i wanted to laugh. it's just crazy to me how he's changed. "savs.." he said.

"savannah to you, now excuse me." i said bluntly. he grabbed my arm but i shoved it off. i saw my order with the receptionist, i told her my name and she handed it to me. i thanked her and walked back to the elevator where jack and jenna were.

they were waiting for the elevator to go up. i hate that im gonna say this but looks like im taking the stairs. my room was on the fifth floor. jack continued to look at me but i ignored him. instead of going to the elevator i went to the stairs, as i was about to walk in jack shouted my name.

i still didn't turn around, "savannah the elevator just got here" he said. i opened the door and continued going up the stairs, i am a big fan of stairs but its better than being in an elevator with them.

after what seemed like 10 minutes i made it to my floor. as i was walking down the hall i see jack at my door. i can't live in peace. i continued walking to my room and ignored him. i opened the door and saw him following in, which made me mad. i place my food on the table and turned to him.

"what do you want from me jack?" i shouted. he looked taken aback. "im sorry i don't know why i left you and you had to see me with jenna." he said. "i don't need your pity. just leave me alone jack. you chose what you wanted and it's jenna. now leave." i said.

"i don't want her i want you savannah." he said. i laughed. "get out. i don't want to talk to you or see you again." i said as i felt tears forming. he sighed and walked out. i don't know what game he's playing but all it's doing is hurting me. when he broke up with me he told me he need space, i didn't know space meant to see someone new.

i'm done trying and forcing something that he no longer wants. i hate that im like this but i truly want to be alone and distance myself from everyone so i can properly heal. our trip was planned for a week. but i can't stay here.

i opened my laptop and looked for a flight for tonight so i could change it. it's gonna be expensive but id rather do this than be here. luckily there was a flight for 4:30. it's currently 12:30, i started to clean up the room and gather all my things. once i finished i realized i never touched my coffee or bagel. the coffee was definitely watered down and the bagel was cold.

i drank some of it and ate half of the bagel. i threw away the trash and grabbed my purse. i went down to the lobby to check out. once i was fully checked out the uber i ordered arrived. i don't care if i have to wait at the airport but that room was giving the heebie-jeebies.

the drive to the airport was about 30 minutes, i put on my headphones and just stared out the window. it's crazy how fast things change with the people you love. i feel like my life was starting to get better but then julian came back, my dad came back and jack now is dating other people. it's just so upsetting because i saw a future with him.

we finally made it to the airport i tipped the uber and thanked him. i got out the car and walked to check in. once i was checked in and went through security i waited in the waiting room. my phone was close to dying so i didn't want to use it. i have about an hour and half until we board. i did bring my journal so that should keep me entertained.

just as i take my journal out of my bag, i see nicole calling me. i sighed im about to get yelled at. "hello?" i said. "savannah montano where are you?" she asked. "in my room." i lied. she gasped, "no you're not. we just came to your room to find someone else in it. then we ask the receptionist and she said you checked out almost an hour ago." she said.

"i left." i said. "to where??" she said. "to the airport." i said. "what the fuck savannah?? were you not going to tell me?? what is it with you not telling us anything?!" she shouted. ouch that hurt. "i'm sorry that running away is the only way that helps me from getting hurt." i said.

"what are you talking about?!" she asked. "i'm talking about everything. i leave when i don't want to deal with anything, i leave because im getting hurt by someone i loved. i'm tired of being everyone's problem. everyone is living their life happy meanwhile mine is falling apart. i just want to be alone so i can deal with my own pain." i said.

"you know what that's fine savannah. i tired of fighting with you about this. you live your fucking life then." she said and hung up. nicole and i never fight. this was real. she's tired of my bullshit but no one will truly understand where i'm coming from. i don't know if im actually okay now.

i've lost the two most important people in my life.