UNDER HIS INFLUENCE

Chapter 37

Kayla

Click. Click. Click.

With every step he took, he drew closer to me. Dangerously close.
The sound of our shoes were in sync with our breathing.

I should have ran, walked away, anything.  But I stayed. I had woken up the beast, and for some fucked up reason, I liked it.

I wanted whatever was happening. Even if the voices in my head kept screaming at my own stupidity.

I liked the danger, the uncertainty of whatever was about to happen. I wanted him, in ways I had never thought I would, even after everything.

His eyes peered into mine, and it was like he looked through my soul like he knew what I felt. His hands on either side of my body, trapped me between the wall and him. His  tall and sturdy physique towered over me despite me being in heels. He bent his head to adjust to my height, our faces inches away from each other, lips and noses dangerously close.

"You were saying?"

His voice  was dangerously low yet deep as he spoke. It drove me crazy and not in a pure and innocent way.

His fingertips slowly traced the bare skin of my arms, drawing goosebumps all over my body.

"Cat's got  your tongue love? I love how much effect I have on you."

He smirked as he spoke, a beautiful and devilish smirk.

His hands found my waist, pulling me closer to him. Our breaths increased, hard yet silent.

I had to stop whatever was going on before it escalated.

Question was, did I want to?

" Do you know how bad i want to ruin you? How much i want to take your lips into mine, how bad  i want to bite them? How bad I want to....."

"You have to say something, Kay. Stop me before I do something that will only make u hate me even more. I can't take more of that, I don't want to  suffer anymore."

For the first time, I could hear the hurt in his voice.  The sincerity in what he was saying.

He drew away from me, the warmth quickly being replaced with coldness.

"I know what I did was wrong,Kay. I know the best thing I could give you is to stay away,  but selfishly, I couldn't. Am sorry Kay, I tried, but I can't forget you. I have tried, but I failed. I just lost purpose of my life when I lost you. Nothing in my life makes sense anymore.

You are the true purpose of my life and if you are not in it anymore, then I can't carry on anymore. Am too selfish to watch u walk away from me again.

In my world full of chaos and darkness, you are my only ray of light too bright I can barely see, and yet I can't see without you, you are the only  glimpse of peace, everything is bedlam when you are away from me.

I am sorry it took me a long time to realise it Kay, but I love you. It is suffocating with out you, I really love you in the rawest and most unrefined way Kayla. They say love is supposed to be pure, but mine isn't. My love for you is crude, not fermented and not refined."

He had just confessed his love for me, it hit me like a wave, I had not expected it.

"Why did it take you so long? Do you know how long I waited for you? I tried to forget it you, I knew you were wrong for me,but I don't think I have ever made a right decision since I met you. Your aura rubbed off on me, I just can't go back to who I was. I love u Ian. In the wrongest way but why the fuck does that matter,the world decides what is right or wrong, so fuck it. I love you Ian. I never stopped loving you."

It was like a trigger, like the barrier had been removed. Before I even finished  what I was saying,  his lips crushed onto mine taking all the air out of my lungs.

We were hungry for each other like hungry tigers devouring their prey. Only this time we were each others prey.

It was not the first time, but this time it felt right.

The sound of the rain synced with our soft moans as we made love.

Everything just felt right.

Hey lovelies, been a journey. But we have come to the end. Thank you for following the complicated love story of Kayla and Ian. There will be an epilogue after this to properly give a proper  ending to this story.  I hate it when a book comes to an end but I hope u enjoyed it. Sorry if it wasn't good though.
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