UNDER HIS INFLUENCE

chapter 27

KAYLA

"You need to get out of this relationship, Kay.It will not end well."
Millie told me for a millionth time.

Something about my life felt like a part from a movie or a novel.

I knew very well what kind of relationship I shared with Ian and yet I kept it going.

I had tried many times to go away, but I was always sucked back into the deadly hole I was now stuck in.

My conscious,my mind and my integrity were now questioned. It felt like I was battling with my own self.

I had even rejected Eliott,who had been everything I had wanted in a man and had crept back into the arms of someone I knew would never love me.

I guess it's true what they say, "the heart wants what it wants."

"Millie, I know you are coming from a good place telling me this,but let us not talk about this ever again."

"Girl!! This guy is going to hurt you. Even more than he already is."

"I know, Millie. I know." The words that left my mouth were a clear sign of my mental illness.

I knew very well that Ian was toxic, and yet I still went back to him, every single time.

His whole being was poison to me,and yet I kept on consuming it.

I had never wanted for Millie to find out about what relationship he and I shared,but with the marks Ian left on my body, it was hard to conceal the truth.

She had been excited at first when she saw the marks on my body, excited that I now had a sexual life.

But as time went by, she knew I was not happy. She had forced the truth out of me and I had finally given in.

On countless occasions,she had found me there, crying on the floor, regretting my decisions and had advised me to leave him.

"Kay, he is not the right guy for you. You deserve much better than him."
She had said at one time.

"I know,Millie, but he is the one I want. I don't know why, but even when I try my best to go away from him, I end up going back to him. I am foolish,Millie, but I can't do anything about it." I had told her,as I cried.

She had tried her best to convince me but when I snapped at her one time,she let the issue go.

This relationship was affecting my mental health.

It was always sex with him. Even when we fought,we would end up intertwined in bed with each other.

People at work were even beginning to notice.

At one point,I had found the cleaners gossiping about it.

"They are always the last ones to leave the office. I am sure there's something going on between those two."

I had wanted to snap at them but that would confirm their suspicions.
So I had left them to their gossip.

Ian's mood was never predictable.

At one time,he had taken me in the conference room immediately after a meeting.

The situation had been so risky,my heart had been in my throat.

Anyone could have come in at the moment yet he didn't care. Thankfully we were not caught but we had been on the verge of being caught.

When we had gotten out,we found one of the workers on his way to the conference room.

I had sheepishly smiled at him,shame written over my face as his eyes peered through my soul as though telling me he knew what I had done.

It was all in my head though.

We had an unhealthy relationship that made me do things I had once been disgusted with.

I was a changed person.Not for the better, unfortunately.

My phone rung,his name appearing on the screen.

"I am outside waiting for you." He said and I looked at Millie,sorry that I had to leave her.

She nodded her head understanding the situation though her eyes held a sad look in them.

"Ok, am coming out now."
I said and ended the call.