Love is half

33

"I am moving to Korea for some months."

And it all it took for Jungkook to get that look, confusion and froze, frowny and disappointment, that look from his hyungs.

"Are you out of your mind?" Jimin's voice comes directly from the left, in front of him, Yoongi looks puzzled, Jungkook stays still, face lacking any emotion as he mumbles those words, sitting in the middle of the bed. He went through a week avoiding work and Taehyung like a plague.

Rooting on his bedsheet until his eyes are stinging, he didn't realize when it became a routine. The plants in his balcony are dried and dead from not care, his apartment is unkept and is a mess, just like him. He has avoided facing this day for so many years, yet here he is, saying the words that makes his tongue heavy, heart shudder.

But until today, when he allows himself to open the door after ignoring Yoongi and Jimin, who agreed to give him space but today they are here to see him, dead worried.

"What is going on Jungkook?" Jimin says again when Jungkook doesn't speak further, he sighs harshly, frustrated,, "You leave us for a week then say thing like this so easily, seriously what the hell is going on?" He is upset when he says this, Jungkook wants to hug him, tell him he is sorry, but he has no energy to explain, nothing to prove.

He has been a mess again. Once again. God please.

"Nothing is going on." He says, he is beginning to believe he is dead, nothing around him is letting him rest anymore, "I just want to visit my hometown for a bit. I miss it." He caresses his own wrist, fingerpads runs over his skin with breath unmatched and he checks his pulse if they are running or if he is just speaking death.

"Kid, we all know you don't like visiting your parents." Its Yoongis voice this time, he has been observing the younger whole time, face puzzled but with a knowing look, he says, "be honest with us, we are your hyungs. " he says softly but with a firm voice.

"I am leaving the store up to you guys, I don't know when i am coming back and all the checks will deposit in both of your accounts, if you think you need another hand, hire any new employee-the store is both of yours until I come back." He ignores Jimin, Yoongi both of them, their stares and all, lately this is what he has been doing.

"i trust you guys."

it's been some days since the event with Taehyung and he has became an unstable mess. His behavior has been harsher with his customer to the point he took break going on store and his hyungs didn't mind it, they understands he might be getting tired of smiling all the time, being calm all the time and it was okay. But until it wasn't, he started snapping towards them  too from littlest thing, ordering them around until they shares pure confusion because Jungkook used to be the kindest, never raised voice and never showed impatience. But within a month, he has changed.

Both Yoongi and Jimin knows this has been going on after Jungkook started spending time with Taehyung.

"I don't care about the fucking paycheck, I just want to know why you are leaving out of nowhere and ignoring our words!" Jimin snaps when the quietness gets too much, and even though Jungkook knows he has right to be upset, he flinches back immediately, catching Yoongi and Jimin, and himself, off guard. Because Taehyung had snapped at him just like this when Jungkook had been calm.

Jungkook sucks a breath and does not know how to answer this. hell, he is not sure either. Taehyung, taehyung, taehyung. That all he knows. That all he thinks of and that all makes him want to regret existing.

"I miss Korea, that's all."

"No you don't. You are going and it has something to with Taehyung doesn't it?" And Yoongi finally says it, those words that Jungkook has tried to best to not acknowledge. Yoongi's voice is never like this. Never emotional, but now it sounds hurt, confused and emotional and the younger nearly wants to sob. But he has been covering his emotions with anger, and it comes out before he can cover it,

"No! My life does not revolve around him, can you guys just leave me the fuck alone!? question after question, you guys are just my employee so do not step in my personal life, got it. Just do as I say." With those words, Jungkook looks away and his face is red. He parts his mouth realizing his words and stares at the bookshelf across his room, books that he has stopped reading.

The truth is. The two boys are probably the closest people in Jungkooks life right now, the one who he can trust blindly and feels safe around. They appeared in his life like a gentle summer, slow and not rushed, like a new beginning. But now having to lie and push them away is harsher than anything. But it's like his words doesn't make sense to them either, they shares a glance with each other and this situation does not fit anywhere.

Jimin looks hurt and Yoongi looks angry.

"Don't raise your voice kid." He replies, "Something is definitely going on in your life but that does not give you right to talk to us like that, okay? Calm the fuck down and decide to tell us after you realize how inappropriate you sound." Yoongi's expression is cold when he says those. He is quite for a long moment with pursed lips, as if he is debating on saying more, but eventually he bites his tongue, and nods instead. "Jimin, Lets go."

and with the final nod Yoongi grabs Jimin by his elbow who is still looking at Jungkook with heavy hurt, but they quietly leaves him alone after closing the door shut.

Jungkook guesses if he wasn't such a fool, he would have been honest.

But something inside him is holding him back to tell the world who Taehyung really is. Something inside Jungkook he has stored for Taehyung is only for him to know, for it to exist until he dies.

Quiet and alone, Jungkook takes out a luggage to pack his bags.

His hyungs did not deserve his words.
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