Broken Promises

Us?

So guys I'm back, for now ☺️

I guess I never really thought about me and Taylor. Like whatever happens happens but it doesn't really mean anything. So what do I say to him? "Uh well I guess we have to stop whatever this is." I look at my fingers in my lap.

I never intended to hurt him but I haven't been able to stop thinking about Cameron. He's been around since forever and he was my first love. You don't forget your first love. But then he ruined everything. Then Taylor came around and he made me feel like something important and for that I'm forever grateful. But I feel like I'm the end I'm supposed to be with Cameron.

I felt a tear slide down my cheek. Taylor shifts closer to me and wipes my cheek. "Hey don't cry. You're not hurting me I promise."

"I'm sorry I really just didn't think things were ever getting better between me and Cam."

"I understand completely." I sniffle and look up at him. "but is your first night alone, do you want me to stay?" I nod and head to my room and Taylor follows.

I change my shorts and climb into bed while Taylor does the same. He presses his chest to my back and wraps his arms around me. I know I know I'm supposed to be with Cameron not cuddling Taylor but me and him just have this type of relationship. He was here when Cameron fucked up and he'll be here if he does it again.

Snuggled up next to Taylor I close my eyes and pretend it's Cameron's arms I'm wrapped in and slowly fall asleep.

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My family on one side and his on the other. I look down to see my dress white and puffy like I've always wanted. My arm intertwined with my fathers. I look down the isle to see him standing
there in him black tux with shopie , in her little pink dress at his side and that heartmelting smile that I fell so hard for and Cameron's face.

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I wake to darkness. I don't know what time it is but it's still night. I feel Taylor still behind me and realize it was a dream. An incredible dream that I would give anything to make a reality.

I'm sorry it's short but I'm exhausted and I'll try to write more tomorrow.