Broken Promises

Sparks.

I sat, my hand intertwined with his, is the waiting room. My leg twitched with anticipation and I couldn't control it. I look into Cameron's eyes hoping to find comfort in them but he couldn't even look at me. I couldn't blame him, I'm disgusted with myself as well.

So many thoughts pinged in my head. Like custody of the baby. Obviously with Taylor's ... Habits is what we'll call it he won't qualify so that means another baby in my small two bedroom condo. And what about my mom I haven't even told her that I was 'seeing' Taylor. Of course when I tell her I'll tell her we were in a monogamous relationship because I wouldn't want her thinking any less of me than she already will.

She has no room to judge considering she left me for months at a time alone when I was sixteen years old. Maybe if she was around a little more I wouldn't have been knocked up before I could legally buy a ticket to an R rated movie.

"Alicia?" The door opened and the doctor stood in the doorway. I looked at cam his face emotionless I couldn't tell what he was thinking. I didn't drop his hand.

"I don't want to do this alone." I said barely above a whisper partly because I felt as if I might cry when I tried to speak.

He nodded and for the first time since dinner with his family I found the comfort I had been seeking in his eyes.

We were led to a small conference room and took our seats on the opposite side of the doctors desk.

"How are you doing today?" He asked looking me in the eyes.

"I've been better." I replied trying not to come off rude but I'm here for answers, not small talk.

"Okay well we got the results from your blood work and the pregnancy test came back negative." Instantly the weight of the world was lifted off of my shoulders. I looked at Cams whose expression had eased making me feel even better.

"Sometimes, in very rare cases, a pregnancy test can give you false positives of blood or proteins are present in the urine. Even if this is what happened there is nothing to worry about. We believe that you might have had a small sist  that worked itself out because it didn't show up on the ultrasound either but we would like to follow up in a month or so."

"Thank you so much." For not tearing apart my small fragile family.

"You're very welcome just see the receptionist on your way out to schedule your appointment."

When we were in the car things got awkward. Nobody was talking and the radio was muted. I looked out the window trying desperately to think of something to start a conversation.

He beat me to it. "We should have a party tonight. I mean we have a lot to celebrate and this way you could tell Taylor in person."

Taylor. I don't think Cam seeing him is the best idea right now. He says he's not mad but I don't buy it.

"I mean... Do you really think that's a good idea?"

"I'll keep my cool. I promise you have nothing to worry about." He laughed a little at the end. He must of seen that my expression still looked a little troubled. "Alicia chill. I swear I won't do or say anything." His hand now rested on my thigh. Sending butterflies through my body.

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When Cameron got back from shopping he laid all the bags on the counter. "Boose. I got lots of boose. You know I'm legal now but whatever." He cockily brushed the non existent dirt from his shoulder.

"No need to brag." I pushed him back so I could but the groceries in the fridge.

"You're just mad because your a baby."

I scrunched my eyebrows " I don't know if you can call me a baby when I have a baby of my own? And it's not my fault I'm so young you're just a cradle robber. "

He laughed "well I couldn't date someone older than me they would go through menopause while my sex drive is still crazy." He said matter of factly.

"Pig." I uttered the words. Then it was silent while he helped finishing putting stuff away.

As I poured chips into a bowl he leaned against the counter and I could feel him staring. "I think we seriously need to talk."

"Last time we seriously talked it didn't end well. Maybe it could wait until after the party?"

He shook his head "it can't."

I put the bag down and let out a breath as I but my weight on my arms resting on the counter "okay."

"We're older than we were when everything first happened. It it all happened so fast and we were young so it seemed so much harder than it does right now. It's so easy to be with you and have a mature conversation with you. We're adults now. We have a kid together. Basically what I'm getting at is I think we should prepare ourselves for the rest of our lives. And now's the best time to do it." He pulled the ring out of his pocket. It was my ring. I had thrown it at him during our last big fight. The fight that ended everything. "Will you do me the extraordinary honor of marring me? And going through with it this time no matter what."

He was right things were different now and this time we're ready to face whatever life has to throw at us. "Yes." I managed to get out through the tears I didn't know I had streaming down my face. But this time they were tears of pure happiness.

The most nerve wracking day had turned into quite frankly the best day of my life.

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All of the boys were here except Nash who was supposed to be on his way. It would be weird seeing him considering the last time I seen him was at the magcon house when I thought I had a thing for him. Well he came to the hospital when Sophie was born but I was too doped up to remember.

I had been avoiding any contact with Taylor because I didn't want to bring the whole situation up in front of everyone. But I seen him making his way over to me when the doorbell rang.

"I'll get it!" I yelled jumping down off of the counter.

I opened the door to find his blue eyes staring back at me. "Nash!" I smiled.

"Wow. It's been a long time." He smiled back going in for a hug. When he touched me I might have felt those old sparks deep down. Who am I kidding I felt bolts of electricity run through my veins.

But none of that matters anymore I told myself. When we pulled away his expression was awkward. He felt them too.

I pushed the thought to the back of my mind and led him the the kitchen where the boys greeted him with hugs and fist bumps.

I made my way to Cam who handed me a beer. "To old friends." He held his high. Everyone followed his actions and  repeated his words and so did I. When everyone drank Taylor's eyes met mine. He was watching to see if I was going to drink it. This was how I was going to tell him. I tipped the bottom of the bottle up and chugged making sure to use my left hand to show off the ring as well.