i dont get it
i just
dont get it
why am i not over you yet
why do i still think about this
how many times have i said that to myself huh?
'i miss you'
i feel like a broken record at this point
its not like you were even together though
you were just friends
why do you miss her so much
because you were the friend
not just a friend
you were the person
who listened to me
who walked with me
who actually gave a shit about anything i was saying
yeah
or at least thats what i thought
that would be the right thing to do right?
to just
move on
everyone would be happier that way
you go do amazing things in the world
and go live far away in your fairy tale castle
you'll die old with a happy life lived
end of story
the end
why does it feel so wrong then
to just
end it
forever
why do i still cry over you
why do i still scroll through our old messages
why do i still stare at your yearbook picture
why cant i just
stop
remembering you
why did you have to leave
all so suddenly
we were great
we didnt have much in common
but we were still great
we laughed together
we cried together
we smiled together
people fucking shipped us for gods sake
but
you could tell she started to dislike you
just look at what she said to you
how she was talking to you
you were clearly taking a toll on her
and you had no clue either
but the way you left me was shitty
that
is my last defense
for all this
everything else you can blame on me
but the way you left
was absolute pure shit
its not like i love you
not anymore
to be perfectly honest i fucking hate you right now
but i miss the memories you left of who you were
YOU ARE READING
maerdyad
PoetryI don't know, I just need to write stuff right now. When you thought you found the one, after all this time, after all the poeple that left, and it turns out, she loves someone else. For when the rain comes, and the hail, and all hell is unleashed, ...