maerdyad

Felony

I need new reading material.

I need new reading material that is completely different and new and isn't about anything that will eat my soul from the inside and something that doesn't make me want to start a car wreck every single day no I'm not okay why did you just so happen to ask?

I need new reading material that doesn't make me feel guilty for what I did even though it's nobody's fault I feel this way,

I just do.



No,
it is your fault.

You both make me feel this way,
wanting to rip off every single one of your petals so I can get my selfish desires.

You're not guilty for saying what you're saying and you're not wrong for just finally being able to say the things you couldn't say before but you do make me feel this way.

And the funny thing,
is that I could just stop smelling the flowers you give one another.

But for whatever reason I keep doing it.

But why would I ever say any of that you're wonderful people you deserve better than to hear how much I fucking hate your flowers and now you saw what I said and now I'm going to regret writing this for the rest of my life I'm fine I'm fine don't worry don't you fucking worry about me I AM FINE.

Don't feel bad.

I'm fine.

I'm really not.

But it's fine.

You're not the bad guy.

You're not doing anything wrong.

I changed my mind you're fine.





I'm guilty.

I did the crime.

The crime that I have to suffer through myself.

I'm the criminal now.