Racing Through My Thoughts

Chapter Fifty-Three: Need a Best friend

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Lando Now Wins Era

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--Evelyn's POV--

Kyla walks into the spare room knocking on the door making me put my phone down, "Do you want to talk about it now?" she asks. I sit up against the bed frame as she reveals the cups of tea behind her back, "I...are you and Lando done?" She asks.

"It's complicated. I don't even know how to explain this," I tell her wincing at the crack in my voice from crying for hours straight. Charles made it his mission to make me laugh before he went to bed. Once he started doing ballet I lost it. I know what career he can go into if he decides to retire from Formula One.

"Your dad is in town?" She questions making me look at her, "He was on your computer screen...it was the only thing that would make sense. You've brought him up like three times throughout our friendship. Did Lando say something?" she asks. She sees the internal struggle on my face and puts her hand on mine, "You don't have to tell me if it's complicated but I'm here if you need me," she tells me. 

"My dad is running drugs in Monaco and he's part of an illegal racing ring that goes throughout the city," I tell her as she widens her eyes taking in all the information, "He's blackmailing Lando and in two days if I don't do this errand for him Lando's career will be ruined," I explain.

"What the hell have you two been doing that you're stuck in this?" she asks as I drop my head in my lap. 

"He's been dealing with this since his rookie season, and I was fully prepared to help him get out of it. Then I found out yesterday that he was running drugs for him but convinced my dad to do drag races instead so he could pay his debt. This whole thing is a mess, and I don't know what the truth is or what isn't. He keeps lying to me or keeping information. He's known about my dad since before his accident. I found out maybe a month ago," I ramble letting my sadness turn to pure anger. 

"Did he tell you why he kept it from you?" 

"I practically found out about my father and Lando around the same time. It was probably like two or three weeks apart," I tell her as she sits beside me leaning on the bed frame, "It's not even what's going on that I'm mad about. If he can lie about this, what else is he lying about?" I ask.

"You love him?" she asks. 

"It scares me how much I love him. It felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest and stomped on when I looked at him yesterday," I tell her as I lean my head on her shoulder, "Why can't our relationship be as cute and drama free as you and Charles?" I ask. She rubs my shoulder as she laughs telling me that's not true.

"Are you going to run the errand for your dad?" She asks.

"Of course I am, even if Lando broke up with me today I still would. He's a great guy and his career is everything to him and I couldn't live with myself if I didn't". 

"What's his thought on you doing it?"

"He was yelling at me telling me not to. He said he'd rather lose my career than potentially let me get hurt. I've never seen him so angry before...even with Lance," I explain.

"Can I tell you the truth?" She asks.

"Obviously, you're the only person whose opinion I trust," I tell her lifting my head to drink some tea. 

"You're an idiot. I know with your past you don't trust many people, but you have so many people in your life now that you'd give your life for. I'm not going to say the cliche of Lando being the best thing to happen to you but he's definitely not the worst. You love him more than any Ex-boyfriend you've ever had. He actually cares about you and to play devil's advocate...he was embarrassed. He's the male version of you. You both hate dealing with your issues and sweep them under the rug. How is he supposed to tell you shit like this without being scared you'll leave? You have a past of running so you don't have to face your issues and I love you but you're kind of a mess sometimes. This is entirely your decision, but I think if you break up with Lando or keep pushing him away you'll regret it the rest of your life," she says as I sit there stunned. 

"I don't even know what to say to that," I tell her with a small laugh. 

"How many times during your fight with Lando did you try to run away?" She asks as I drop my eyes into my teacup avoiding her question, "I'm not saying you have to talk to him right away but if you don't, I'm going to break into the apartment and kidnap you".

"I will. I will. I just don't know what to say. I told him I needed a break," I reveal.

"I'm going to have Charles go to his apartment to make sure he doesn't take it as a Ross kind of break," she says getting out of bed. I laugh as she runs out and yells his name. I look at my phone and see some notifications before I see a voicemail from Lando from last night a couple hours after I left. 

"I love you and I don't want to be on a break," he whispers sounding like he drank after I left, "Just please don't do this. I'm not worth it".