dangerous curves -Lando Norris (English Version)

Part 43: crisis

''Never..because I'll never be good enough, love...'' he says weakly.

''Stop talking such bullshit, norris...'' I respond.

''that's why i have to let you go..so you deserve what you wished for as a child..to be happy...'' he says weakly.

''Please don't say that...'' my eyes fill with water.

''dear...I love you so much that it kills me...for both our hearts, I have to do this...''

''please don't..my heart won't bear to be separated from you, norris...'' i say in a weak voice, tears leaving my face.

''You see..I wouldn't have let it get this far in the first place..I want you to be happy and not cry..just because of me you cry..I can't do this anymore...'' he says tenderly as cold fingertips wipe away my tears.

Eyes closed, I try to calm myself down.

''It doesn't mean we'll never see each other again...it just means we'll never get that close again...'' he explains to me.

''That's exactly what my heart won't bear...I'm too weak to cope...'' I say, still in tears.

''You're the strongest person I know...'' he says softly, his fingertips wiping away my tears again.

Wet eyes look into his.

''I have to do this..please don't fight it...''he whispers again.

''Okay...'' I say with a heavy heart.

''thank you, love...'' he whispers, his eyes piercing mine.

''Let me look at your hand...'' I say softly.

Weakly, he sits up, leaning against the wall next to me. I gently treat the cut on his palm and put a bandage around it. Then I lean against the wall in the same way. Only our breathing drowns out the oppressive silence in the room. Exhausted, I lay my head down on his shoulder. He gently pulls me close, his hands resting over my knees.

''I'm going to miss you so much...'' I whisper with a broken heart.

''I'll miss you too, love...I promise you'll be better without me...'' he whispers.

Now our eyes connect again.

''One last kiss?'' I whisper.

''I don't know if I could stop then...it would make everything harder...'' he whispers back.

''Please...'' I whisper in a broken voice.

A gentle palm places his hand on my cheek. We move closer and closer together.

*Knock knock*

Shrugging back, we move away from each other. Lewis and Maria step inside.

''Are you okay, bro?'' Lewis asks Lando, who helps him up.

I stand up as well.

''Now tell me what's going on between you...'' Lewis demands.

''bro...we've sorted everything out, we're just friends. Nothing more...'' Lando explains to him.

Just friends. Ouch.

''Oh, and for how long? As long as I live under the same roof, you can always get closer...'' Lewis responds skeptically.

''What are you saying, Lewis?'' I intervene now.

''lando...it's better if you move out...I just can't trust you both living under the same roof...'' Lewis says harshly.

''What? No...'' I say quickly.

''darl- Amalia..it's okay, that's for the best...''Lando holds me back.

''Lewis...why do you get to be happy and I don't? Lando can't help it...'' I tell him my opinion.

''He's my best friend...it's disgusting if you were together...I just want you both to be happy...'' Lewis tries to defend himself.

''Lando won't move out...'' I respond stubbornly.

''Yes, because it's my apartment...'' Lewis responds all the more stubbornly.

''then I'll move out..but Lando stays.''

''What? Amalia...'' Lando's voice rings out, his eyes fixed on me again.

''Amalia...where are you going?'' Lewis joins in again.

''You don't care...you're destroying everything I want...I don't want to live under the same roof with someone like that...'' I say hurt, leaving the bathroom.

His cold fingers grip my wrist.

''amalia..I'm going to move out...''

''no, norris..you don't have anyone and I don't want to take away what is so important to you and that is my friendship with my brother...'' I respond.

''and what about you? You're just as alone..you need this more than I do...'' Lando replies gently.

''Don't worry about me, I'll get through it...'' I say gently and give him a kiss on the cheek.

Then I leave his father's house, feeling his gaze on me for a long time.

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''amalia..please, don't go...'' says Maria, with Lewis and Lando also standing in my room while I was packing my things.

''it's okay Maria..I'm not going to be out of the world..I'm just going to live somewhere else...''I explain to her.

''oh and where are you going? Amalia, don't be so stubborn..you only have us..please don't go. And we'll find a compromise...'' Lewis intervenes now.

''lewis...I would have given my life for you in the past...what has happened that we are so far apart?'' I ask in a disappointed voice.

Now his heart has sunk too.

''I don't know either, amalia...maybe the thing with Lando...''

''stop always blaming everything on him...the problem is just that you always destroy what makes me the happiest...he's the one who has made me happy the last few months and picked me up when I was about to draw a line under it all...'' I say now.

''amalia...don't you understand? He's not good for you...'' Lewis says a little louder now.

''Oh, and you decide that? You're selfish, the main thing is that you can wake up next to the person you love...but I can't?" I ask back hurt.

''You know what, it's better if you move out...'' he says and leaves my room.

''I'm sorry, sweetie...'' Maria says hurt and hugs me before leaving the room too.

Now our eyes meet again.

''You know you don't have to do this for me...''

''You heard him, he doesn't want me here anymore...'' I say hurt and suppress my tears.

''I'm sorry...I should never have let it get this far...I shouldn't have been so selfish...forgive me dear...'' he says in a broken voice.

''Why can't I be happy?'' I ask now in tears, and he immediately runs towards me and wipes them away.