Lifeless Sea (GL)

Chapter 5

Trigger Warning: vulgar words, self-harm

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Katniss: Are you free tomorrow at 6:30 p.m.?

Nagtaka akong binasa ang message nito, baka nawrong send, so I don't bother myself to reply. Kaka-uwi ko Lang at hinatid niya ako. I initially refused, but she insisted.

Kaysa makipagtalo ay sumabay nalang ako sakanila ni ate Arissa.

Wala akong ginawa noong Sunday kung hindi ang magpahinga o pahinga bang matatawag ang ginawa ko?

It's Monday, yet my past has come back. I saw my old friends hanging out with their new friends, or best friend, rather. They looked happy, and I'm not.

I should be happy for them but I can't feel anything.

Surea and I were in the same circle before, pero kaming dalawa nalang ang natira.

"Are you ok?" Boses ni Katniss agad ang narinig ko.

"I'm fine," sabi ko at naglakad papunta sa building namin. But she's not convinced.

I saw Surea approaching me at kasama niya sila Serius, Sorin, Kalyst, and Tala. She hugged me and I pushed her off. Nagtataka ko siyang tinignan, she looked so worried.

Pushing them away when I'm like this is also hurting myself. The guilt is eating my system pero ano bang magagawa ko? Alam ko na may problema rin sila.

"Anong meron?" Tanong ko, nanatili siyang nakatingin sa'kin na nag-aalala ang mata.

Ang weird ng mga tao lately.

"Hi, ate Kat," binati nila si Katniss na nasa tabi ko ngayon at kailan naman sila naging close para magka-nickname pa?

"Ano bang meron?" I'm annoyed right now.

Bukod sa walang kain ay sira na agad ang umaga ko dahil sa nakita ko kanina tapos dagdagan pa ngayon, I'm confused for the hell sakes.

"Nag-aalala lang kami sa'yo, wala ka kasing paramdam. Ayos ka lang ba te?" Tanong ni Kalyst.

"Of course I'm fine, ang weird niyo ngayon." I said that and let out a heavy sigh.

Then their gaze suddenly landed on the girl beside me.

"So it's all because of you? Anong sinabi mo sa mga 'to?" naiirita kong tanong.

"I just told them na you're still not feeling well lately." She said, looking apologetic. Dapat lang, ayokong pinag-aalala yung mga taong nakapaligid sa'kin.

"Gala nalang tayo mamaya, libre ni Katniss." I said sarcastically. She's pissing me off.

"Sure, see you later, Waverine," she winked at umalis dahil sumabay na rin siya sa kaklase niya.

"What the hell just happened?" Gusto kong sampalin ang sarili. Bakit sobrang bilis naman ata pumayag non?

After that conversation, I went to the comfort room pero sumunod si Surea and Kalyst.

They looked worried, parang hindi pa sure na ok na talaga ako kahit sinabi ko naman na kanina.

"Patingin ng wrist mo," sabi ni Surea at kinuha ang kamay ko bago tinignan at may chineck na kung ano. She was my bestfriend na hindi ko kayang mawala. After all, she understands me. Kahit anong sama ng ugali ko ay naiintindihan niya, she doesn't deserve a bestfriend like me.

"Hindi mo naman ginawa 'di ba, teh?" Kalyst asked me.

"Gagawin ang alin?" Patay malisya kong tanong

"Salamat sa pag-aalala, I really appreciate it." Ngiti kong sabi. I really appreciate them.