Submissive Husband

7.Gulf - How will I believe this.

Gulf

What happen, why I cant contact bright. I need him the most now. What wrong phi, I ask manager who look shock. Bright in hospital now, his car hit by a truck he said with unbelievable tone. How could the driver drunk in day light he said and shake his head . I felt pity for bright. I hope he is okay he said again. I really cant hear what my manager said. The only thing I know is bright involved in accident. Gulf, my manager call me. What wrong he ask me again. Where is bright phi, I ask him nervously. He is at
Romsaithong Hospital my manager reply. I quickly run to my car. I need to be there. Bright have no one. Its only take me 20 minutes. Now I am at Hospital waiting for bright worrily. He will be alright, my best friend will be alright. I keep praying. I can see bright team but I cant find win. He must be out of country. I know that bunny will be crying right now. Bright driver death really scare me. I know everyone look at me weirdly. Why I was here. But I don't care for anything right now. I want to be with bright like he used to be with me in what ever situation. Please be safe bright I keep praying. Gulf, I hear the voice I miss the most now. I look at phi mew. Why is he here. Are you okay, he ask me again. I nod and quickly look away. He gently sit beside me and hold my hands. I only can look at his hand who now grasp my hand tightly giving moral support. I know he mean good, but I slowly pull my hand. Dont worry , he will be alright. Now bright team look more confuse. Why both of us here. I also confuse, how phi mew related to bright. Why is he here, but I really dont have the strenght to talk to him. So I just keep silent and wait for bright.

Where is he, I keep asking myself. Why we don't have any news. What going on, I ask myself. I look at phi mew who now on the phone. You should go back home now. We cant see bright today, phi mew said. Why, I ask him. I am sorry I can't say anything but we can't see bright now. Lets go home, phi will send you back. You are not fit to drive now he said like always. Like a very soft gentleman guy that I fall for. Wait for me he said before meet bright team. I am sorry phi, I said and quietly leave . I cant act like we use to be. I am still hurting.

I already in my bed when I read phi mew message." Dont worry, he is in good hand. You should wait for phi" why he always act like this. He make me feel special. I hate it when he Care for me but as his brother. I hate when he kind to me as his friends. I dont want to be his brother, I want to be more. I want to be his lover, I want to be his partner but I know everything is over. He cruelly make me understand that my dream will never happen. He make sure that I know he will never belong to me. I really want to know , who is in his heart. I am so jelous of that unknown person. I must be crazy but until today I still cant forget him. I still want him.

It's getting weird. We still don't hear any news about bright. Win now crying asking me the situation. He is at Milan now for his work. I only can comfort him by saying everything is okay. I ask him To keep calm and do a good Job.
I finally call phi mew. He is the only one who know bright conditions. I felt reluctant but I need to know about bright. The most answer I need is, why phi mew know about bright, what are their relation. Its scare me but I really need to know. So before I meet him, i prepare myself. Is he bright I finally ask phi mew. Phi mew look at me. What do you mean, he ask me. Do you love bright , I ask him clearly this time. Phi mew look at me and firmly reply. No, its not him. I swear he said. I cant explain but I felt relieved. I dont know how to react If he love bright. I am thankful to God that I dont need to be in ackward situation with bright. I must be crazy, but I cant find any reason why phi mile know about bright and he is the only one who know bright conditions right now. That make me question his answer. Are you sure phi, I am okay. You don't need to lie, I said calmly. No listen to me gulf. I am not in love with bright he said again firmly. Then why only you know bright conditions and where about, I ask him again. All of us are worried, I said. I need to see him, I said again. I am sorry, you can't phi mew said. Why, I ask him. I am sorry, I cant say anything. But I promise bright in good hand , phi mew said. What do you mean, bright in who hand, why are your related to this, I ask him again. Gulf will you believe me if  I said we are family, phi mew ask me. I quickly shake my head. Can you just trust me, he ask again. Again I shake my head. He know I will not stop worrying about bright. He know our close relationship. After a long silent phi mile softly said. I am bright's husband cousin. That why I know bright conditions. We need to hide this. That why he was treat at secret place. We need privacy phi mile said. I felt like stupid. Did I hear wrong. Husband, bright's husband. I must be crazy. I need to rest. I am telling you the truth, so stop worrying, phi mew said. I look at him to find any lie. But phi mew look at me seriously. This is the truth he said again. No, bright wont hide it from me, I said. I dont know how close both of you are, but bright are in tough situation. I know he will tell you if he can phi mew said. This is crazy, how will I believe this. Now, go home and rest. I will contact you as soon as I have bright update he said and caress my hair. Lets go, let me send you home, he said again. Thank you phi, I said and quietly leave him like before. I need to be independent. I cant rely on phi mew anymore. I cant let myself keep dreaming.