Submissive Husband

1.Bright - What do you mean

Bright

I look at my friend interview. Gulf can you comment on mew new korean partner in BL series, a reporter ask him. I am happy for him and hope the series will be success gulf reply. Will you also have other Bl series, the reporter ask again. I wont do any BL genre if I am not with mew, gulf said. Win look at me. Why he declare that, he ask me. I dont know, maybe out of angry or his broken heart, I reply. What happen to them, win ask again. I don't know, their relation  suddenly turn sour,  gulf never talk about this, I said. Phi bai, I hope we will still be friend even we decide to not be in BL series anymore win said and look at me. I smile and look at me. I never lie when I said we will together forever,weather we have series or not. This special bonding are more precious than love I said and caress his hair. Me too, I really love you as my bro, win said sincerely. Its pity to look how mew and gulf relation turn out like this. win said again. I nod and keep looking at gulf interview.

Can you go home alone tonight, I ask metawin. Phi, I am skillful driver more than you, dont worry. That cute bunny never miss his chance to tease me.
I just rolls my eyes and slowly leaving dew apartment. We have small f4 gathering here. We miss each other so much. Everyone become very busy after the series, so to get together like this is like blessing,  but I really need to see gulf. I know he have so many friends, but working in same industry , I will understand him better. Dont drink too much I remind all f4 team. All of then have heavy schedules tomorrow.

I patiently waiting at gulf door. I know he is not this kind of person. It really weird when he start giving statement that can backlash mew, his co partner. 
I know him since our school day. He is soft person. I dont want to be bias but I know gulf better than phi mew. I never have chance to work  with phi mew before. So he is total stranger. There must be something that both of them try to hide. Gulf, I greet him slowly when he open the door with his swollen eyes. What happen, I ask quickly when I get into his apartment. I know he will be here if he have a problem. He dont want to make his parent worry. He is nice kid.
Bai, he said slowly. I am ready for anything, so I just wait for gulf to open up to me. I am really bad guy, gulf suddenly said.  What wrong, I ask again.  I hate phi mew, he force me to be like an angel and make him bad guy. He force me to end our relation this way.  I dont want to hurt him in anyway. He thought this is the only way both of us can end our cowork. Gulf said with full of tears.
I still don't understand but I keep on listening to gulf. I am willing to end this, but phi mew believed that if we separate in good term, our fans wont accept and keep on hoping. He really want to end this for real, gulf said again. Why, I ask gulf. I think I really fall for him , gulf said. I look at gulf with my wide eyes. Do you like boys, I ask him. I dont mean to judge but I am just shocked.  I know all gulf ex girlfriend. How come he change over the year. No, I dont know, but I fall for him, gulf said again. Did you confess , I ask him. Yes, and he reject me. He treat me like his younger brother, he said he will support me but in his own way. That why he choose to be the bad guy so I can move foward smoothly.  He felt sorry for my love. I dont need all of this, I need his love gulf said and cry again.

I look at my drunk friend who now sleep with his tears. Do phi mew need to reject him this hard. Can he be more gentle. I know its not easy to reject someone, but to force gulf to this extent is too much. He clearly put the line between them. Luckily me and metawin have a very pure relationship.  We really know our place and respect each other. We love each other but not this kind of love gulf have. He will suffer. This is the first thing our seniors advice me and win before our series release. They ask us to be professional since the start so both of us can differentiate the truth or the delusion. Sometime we will brain washed by our hard-core fans, we will live in their delusion,  so we need to really be careful.  I felt so sorry for gulf.
Being in this genre really make we live in fantasy. So we need to be strong to avoid all this, but I never see rejection this cold. I know a few couple who breaking their relationship but not to this extent.

It's so regretful.  After I make sure gulf sleep soundly,  I quickly leave his apartment and go to one of our artist friend club. We can guaranty our privacy here. I really need to drink. This is too much for me. I look for someone that i know but look like no one from my circle are having fun tonight. So I quietly sit at the bar. It's my 3rd glass, when I hear someone said. Take it easy, you will drunk he said and sit beside me. I look at him and quickly turn back. I dont want to see him right now. I know it's not his fault for not accepting my bestfriend feeling, I just cant help but to angry with phi mew. I am planing to meet him but not tonight. I just nod and stand up to leave phi mew. Can we talk, phi mew ask me. I am a bit tipsy but I force myself to sit beside him. Please take care of gulf, he must be sad now phi mew said slowly. After all you did, I ask him coldly. So you know, he ask and look at me gently. He just confuse, I know gulf too much, phi mew said. Even so, why push him too hard, I ask him again. I am sorry bright, I have my own reason, just like you phi mew said gently. I look at him with my big eyes. What do you mean, I ask him quickly. He just caress my hair. Nothing he said and back to his drink. I hope you dont force and hurt gulf anymore, I said and leave. That the last thing I want to do, phi mew said slowly but I can hear it. Its weird , phi seem to know about me and gulf friendship. As per my knowledge only our close circle know our relation.  Did gulf tell phi mew before, I finally leave with all the questions.

03.06.2024