Submissive Husband

15.Bright - What are you doing,

Bright

What happen to me. Why I am here. I really confuse. I look at phi mile tired face. Why he is here. He sleep on the chair beside me. Phi mew quickly come to me when he notice I am awake.
Are you okay now, he ask me slowly. Maybe he dont want to disturb phi mile. I nod. What going on, phi I ask him. Then I look at phi mile who now awake and look at me. Are you okay, are you hungry , he ask me quickly. I look at him for a while and all the memory come back.  After I know about my retirement announcement,  I felt so angry. I felt frustrated because I cant do anything.  I am so angry at myself because I cant fight for myself. I am tired but I cant sleep. I need to sleep so that I can fight phi mile. I really try to sleep but I cant. So I decid3 to take a sleeping pills.  After taking 2  pills i still not sleepy so I take more pills. That all I remember.

After 5 days, phi mile finally allow me to go home. It's feel weird. From the hospital ward to phi mile room, he keep carrying me. Even in the car he still make me sit on his laps. I can feel he is shaking. He must be angry. Then decide to bring me to his room, I felt angry but I am too weak and scare to fight. I dont know how, but I fall asleep. I wish i can sleep forever.

He try to talk to me everyday,  but i decide to be mute and deaf. I dont want to be heard or I don't want to hear anything .since I have no say in mylife I decide to live a lifeless doll. Since I need to live based on his mercy, I dont want to  do anything. I just breath and eat. He try to talk with me everyday but  I  act like he never exist until that construction start. What he plan to do now. I can see from my balcony they try to build something. I am at my limit when he bring me to his private mini zoo. The best part he dedicated the said zoo for me. Since I don't want to talk to him, I start throwing all his precious thing. He look shock, but he dont stop me. I think I destroy most of the thing in his room. After being tired and what not , he gently bring me to his study room. He carry me because he dont want me to hurt. I was in angry mode until phi mew come. At first I dont want to talk with anyone but he gently tell me how he also don't have power to stop phi mile. While our helpers cleaning phi mile room, all of us are sitting in his hall. I notice since that day, phi mile never leave me alone.
He make sure I am with someone if he can't be with me. Since phi mew being soft and gentle I finally talk to him. I told him how I hate to see animal caged. I make him understand, I don't want that mining zoo. After disclose the reason why  I am angry I glare at phi mile and run to his room  which  is clean now.

Since I have nothing to do and to show my protest, most of the time, I stay in my bed. Normally phi mile will ask weather I am ok or have I eat but ike always i just ignore his question. So today when I hear phi mile open the room door, I quickly close my eyes. I dont want to see him. It was quiet , I think I hear a cat . I Try hard to not open my eyes but I finally surender when I am confident it's really cat. I quickly get out of my bed and run to phi mile sofa. I can see a cat in a basket. Oh my god , she so beautiful.  I cant help but go closer. I quickly distance myself when phi mile get out from bathroom. Do you like it, he ask me gently. Since  the mini zoo was abolished,  I never thought that he will do this. I refuse to answer but sit infornt of the cat. I really want to touch it. I wait for phi mile offer. But he just keep quiet. Maybe he want me to talk. I look at phi mile but he just look at me. Do you like it, he ask again. I dont know why but I felt like crying.  I think he purposely force me talk. He know I like it. With heavy heart I finally stand up and walk to his bed. I sadly sit and look down. How could he do this. Then suddenly he put the cat on my laps. It's yours, he said. I look at him and quickly hug the cat. He smile and  caress my hair before walk to his working table. I only can look at him. He dont need to make me sad I said sulky. I look at phi mile who now look at me. While looking at him , i slowly walk to the door. Once i go out, With the cat in my hug,  i run to my helpers. Now I am close to everyone except for phi mile. I know I will be crazy if I dont do something.  That who I'm.  I have face so much. What I can do is adjust to the changes. I look for aunty who always prepare my favorite food. Aunty, I call her loud . I now run to helper large back chamber. I am regular here. They cant force me to leave so they decide to accept me here. I know they must scare of phi mile. I am master of the house partner, so i understands how they felt uncomfortable. But I am bright, I never look for something like status or Job. For me everyone are the same as long as he try hard and hardworking.  So when phi mile working, I love to stay here, now I can see how they try to make their guest area more presentable.  I personally help them to buy new furniture.  Now all the helper look at my new cat. We now trying to find a good name. We are laughing and keep teasing each other. I miss to work but when we play together I felt a bit better. Khun mile is so nice, he buy a cat for you unty said. No, he till not nice, i said. All of the helpers just laugh. What are you doing, suddenly phi mile ask.