Submissive Husband

29. Bright - Why are you doing this.

Bright

It was just another day. After helping my neighbour to walk his dog, I finally walk to my home. I plan to have my private bbq party tonight.  I received good quality meat from my neighbours.  While thinking of my dinner I failed to notice a car in front of my house. 

Hi bright,  phi mile greet me. He look a bit cold. He must be sitting here for along time.  Hi, I reply slowly.  What are you doing here phi, I ask him try to calm myself but keep our distance. I come, I will give it to you, I cut phi mile sentence . Give me what, he ask me. Our divorce agreement. I am sorry, I should send our documents but I am scare to be an issue again, I said try to explain. Please wait, I said and quickly get into my house. Bright, phi mile hold my hand. I am sorry,  did I make a problem for you, I ask phi mile worrily.  I am sorry phi,  I dont mean it, I said. I am really sad and scare right now.  I thought no one know where I am, but it's like a piece of cake for phi mile to find me. Bright, phi mile call me harder. I am sorry,  please wait I said and pull my hand. I quickly open the door with shaking hand. I run to my room. I wipe tears before run to phi mile again.  This it is, I said. I am sorry, I said again. Bright, phi mile said and hug me tight. I am sorry phi, I said again and again.  Please bright, phi mile said. Please listen to me, he said.

I serve phi mile with hot chocolate.  Now both of us sit in living room ackwardly. I try to pretend everything is alright.  I am doing fine as for now.  I am ready phi, I said. I am sorry ,phi mile  said and look into my eyes. I try to reply but phi mile quickly add. I am here to bring you back he said again. It was a sudden quietness.  I think i hear it wrong . Lets go home bright, phi mile said again. After I am sure and understand phi mile word, I gently reply. I dont have home phi, I cant go home when I don't have one,.I said calmly. Please bright, let me explain,  phi mile said again. What wrong phi,  why all of sudden.  Did you breakup with you girl friend, I ask him. I remember how he look so happy with a beautiful lady. Phi mile face suddenly become pale. So I was right. Bright, there is no one, I left you not because of that lady, phi mile desprately said. It does't matter anymore, we are divorced, we just need to submit our documents I said try to control my emotions. my heart hurt so much.  I am angry but I know I dont have any right. I understand that we can't force love. I know it. He make it clear from the start. I know I will be crying if I stay here any longer.

It was midnight when I felt really hungry and walk to the kicthen planing to eat. I am really suprise when I see phi mile still in my living room. He must be cold. I quickly run to him. Phi, I call him who are in deep thought. Why are you still here, I ask him when he look at me.
I am waiting for you, we will go home he said. I look at him. Phi, I told you. I am not going anywhere I said a bit firm this time. No, we will go home he said again but this time with no compromise tone. Phi, you cant force me, I am not you husband anymore,  I said angrily. 
Are you sure, he ask me and look at me with unreadable expression.  I must be crazy, how could I forgot about that. I need to sign the document.  Wait , I dont event read the document. I look at the envelope on the table. Phi mile just look at me and quickly grab the document when I try to take it back. Give it to me , I said coldly. Nope, not a chance phi mile said gently this time. Phi, I shout and try to steal the envelope from phi mile. In that split moment, I am in phi mile hug. What are you doing, I ask him angrily. I try to push him away. But like stone he just ignore my shouting. Lets go home baby, it safe now, no one will hurt you again, he said gently this time. No, never I said. Leave me alone I said again. Please phi mile said when he distance himself and look at me. No, I dont want to be with you anymore , I said. Phi, What are you doing, I yell again when phi mile just kiss me. I am so angry but he dont release me even for a moment. After continuous strugle I finally felt tired. When he look I am too tired to fight anymore  phi mile casually kiss me again. Good boy he said and strokes my hair.  I am speechless.  Before I start yelling, he give me the divorce documents.  I quickly grab the envelop and run to my room. I need to safe this first then I will deal with phi mile. I quickly find my pen. I need to sign. I need to sign fast .

What are you doing baby, phi mile ask me who are now sit on my bed quietly. 
I must be stupid. I should check before. Phi mile take the divorce document and ask me with teasing tone. Why don't you sign baby, he ask.  I glare at him. I am so angry that I cry. I must be stupid. How could I let this happen. I am too angry with myself.  Phi mile slowly sit beside me. Dont be sad, he said. He gently hug me. But I am too dumb founded.  How could I miss that phi mile never sign the form. How could I dont read and check  the document.  Its an empty form. It's okay phi Mile said and pat my back. I try to escape but he gently make me stay. I hate you, I said.  Its okay, I love you he said . I look at him. Why are you doing this phi, I ask him.