BiteBound *completed*

Chapter 21.5

I was swamped by the time we arrived back at the mansion.

Arthur wanted to talk after noticing the silent treatment on the drive back. I for one was too upset with him to even want to hear anything he had to say.

Once I was safe in my room, I kicked off my shoes, shoved my pants down to the floor and yanked off my blazer to toss across the room. I didn't even bother taking off my sweater from how cold I felt tonight.

My body collapsed into bed face first, pulling the pillow into my face to let out the angry cry I was holding back.

I didn't want us to be over, whatever that "us" was.

I really do feel like there is something there, but he's just so convinced that the bond was making me blind of my feelings. That somehow to him, no matter how or what I felt, they are and always will be invalid.

I think that's what hurt the most out of all this; that he thinks I'm not capable of knowing what's from my heart and what's a facade.

I know what I'm feeling and I know what I desire.

And I... I refuse to give up on Arthur.

I want him to give me a real fighting chance before walking away from my life. I know he's probably still mourning about his ex-wife, and I want to support him in anyway I can to help him move on; I know it's selfish, but I want for him to see me as more than just a responsibility.

I'm more than just a woman who was seduced. I'm still me just more intense... aren't I?

I want him to see that, that this mess is who I am.

That despite my mess, the feelings I have for him are true.