I Am The Queen

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

"Ken." I looked at him.

"Prove me, once again, that you are worthy of your current position." Nakita ko ang pagkalito sa mga mata niya.

"In any way you want, my queen." He said full of determination in his eyes.

"Bring Kai with you. I want you to do something for me." I said.

It was the easiest way I know to send them away for a while. Alam kong hindi iyon basta bastang babaliwalain ni Ken dahil nakasalalay do'n ang posisyon n'ya sa organization.

Matapos umalis ng dalawa para sa iniutos ko, kinausap ko ang iba.

"Are you sure, queen?" Tanong ni Silver.

I turned down the electricity in the whole mansion. Every camera or any devices and machines turned off.

Iyon ang naisip ni Jaxon na gawin para mahanap lahat ng camera na nakainstall sa bahay.

Balak namin itong palitan para mawalan ng access si Ken sa monitor.

After doing that, I asked Silver to install a spy camera on my room.

We've discussed about the upcoming event on Saturday where all of the organizations will come. Kahit iyong magkakalaban ay magkakatagpo dahil sa event na iyon.

"Ken took side with the sinister." Ani Jaxon.

Nangunot ang noo ko.

"Akala ko wala na ang sinister na 'yan?" Takang tanong ni Pierre.

"We have no idea na may pinsan ang dating namumuno and he's taken charge of the organization. Muli n'ya itong binalik at alam kong pupuntiryahin nito ang mga mababa sa kanila in order to rise again." Silver explained.

"Some of our men betrayed us as well. They were blinded by money. Ken personally recruited our men to our rival."

"Tangina talagang lalaki 'yan. Dapat sa kanya pinapatay agad eh." Ani Jaero.

"Bakit n'ya ginawa 'yon?" Hindi makapaniwalang ani Kleo na kanina pa nananahimik.

"Dalawa lang 'yan. It's either he wanted to gain more men for our familia and help us rise, or he wanted more men that will surely help him destroy this familia and take this organization from our Queen." Ani Aragorn.

"That's fucking bullshit!" Galit na ani Deron.

"What about Kai Tuazon?" Tanong ni Jaxon. Lahat sila ay napatingin sa akin.

"He helped our familia multiple times the moment he entered this familia. He also helped our Queen."

"Right. S'ya ang nagdala sa kanya sa ospital, 'di ba?" Ani Deron at nilingon si Aragorn na nakatingin lang sa akin.

"Just because someone did something good to you doesn't always mean they can be trusted." Malamig kong ani.

Jaero smirked and sipped on his whiskey while Aragorn looked away.

"Huh? Bakit, Queen? Anong ginawa sayo no'n?" Kunot noong tanong ni Kleo.

"Nah. I just want you to know that trust shouldn't be given easily. It's must be earned. Not everyone are trust worthy." I said.

A lot of men have failed me. They have broken my trust multiple times. I've been disappointed by those whom I have given my trust into.

"Sabagay. Mismong kanang kamay mo nga tinraydor ka, yun pa kayang bago lang?" Ani Deron.

I sighed.

What have I've done to get this in return?

I thought everything's getting better. Turns out it only gets worse.

Sinabi sa akin si Silver lahat ng nalaman n'ya.

Kai is Ken's cousin. Nagkahiwalay sila nang magsimula nang magtrabaho si Ken at nag aaral pa din si Kai.

Ken told me that Kai is his friend. Hindi n'ya ba inisip na baka dumating ang oras na paghinalaan ko s'ya?

Ani Silver, nananakit raw ng babae si Ken kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi s'ya nagkakaroon ng asawa. He's already 31 at wala pa s'yang balak mag asawa ayon sa kanya.

"Sus! If I know hinihintay ka lang n'yang mahulog na kanya, Queen." Nakangising ani Jaxon.

"Tangina, kadiri talaga!" Nakangiwing ani Deron. Napangiti ako sa reaksyon n'ya.

"Matatanggap ko pa kung si Kai." Dugtong n'ya dahilan ng pagkapawi ng ngiti ko.

I remembered what happened before. My best friend, Luna, said the same when we were in high school.

"Mas mapapanatag ako pag nagkatuluyan kayo kasi alam kong tinatrato ka n'ya ng tama." I smiled as I reminisce those memories. Moments when I am still so happy and madly in love with Justine Bernales.

Tumayo ako at walang lingong pumanhik sa kwarto ko.

Walang tigil ang biglaang pagbagsak ng luha ko dahil sa mga alaala na gustong gusto ko nang kalimutan.

I locked myself in my room as I cried my eyes out.

If love is the best feeling in the world, then why does it have to hurt this bad?

I remembered those happy moments I and Justine have shared. The very first time we kissed and when he hugged me.

Everything that had happened between us haunted me.

Akala ko pag tumanda na ako, hindi na masakit. Akala ko matapos ang ilang taong pananahimik, hindi na ako maaapektuhan. But I was wrong. It's fucking burning me in the inside.

The warmth that once game me comfort, now, it's nothing but merely scorching fire.

I have long forgotten how does it feels to be loved. That is why I am craving for it. I'd die for it but at the same time, I'm scared of it.

I've missed those moments. I'm not gonna lie, I want to feel that again.

I'm scared of getting hurt again and being disappointed. Maybe this is meant to happen. Maybe my role is to protect my loved ones from any harm and protect myself as well from the fires of the thing they call "love"

And yet...

If there would be a certain period of my life I would want to get back into, it would be on the year 2023. Where everything feels like a dream come true. When everything was real. Those moments when I would close my eyes and think about what happened and smile. I want to go back on 2023 when he still love me.

I hate the fact that all of what happened reminds me that nothing lasts. Those moments turned into memories.

Now, those happy memories became a nightmare— haunting me.