Unconditional Events \ Chanlix

Fractured family

I lost the sanity long time ago and its doesn't matter now at all and it was the only thing I could do well, to walk with the straight face as if nothing happened and the whole thing was just the curved life I was leading as I was going on the new fashion week as my hair was changes again and the new covers were coming up as I received some invitations of spending the weekends in Milan with the famous model boy relaxing at the beach as we had so much fun and the only thing mattered the club party and the sex partner I was able to find easily.

The silver hair that was now more cold toned that was longer left as I rode the Italian business man whose soft touches made me wanna go on for hours as he held my sweaty skin as I kissed him as he smirked liking the body he possessed for a moment as I let the room as fast as I could going for the smoke out as I saw my other friend Seung there standing.

-U are such a horny man i heard u through the whole hall.

He added as he winked to me, we shared the cigarette.

-It's fun.

-I see, I can't like u, I want to have love of my life near me.

-Hah, that sucks, mine left me ignoring me for years.

He looked at me as we sat on the beach burring the feet in the cold sand from the cool night.

-U were in love? I don't believe.

-I was.

I said as he smile dot me hugging me lightly as I looked at the waves hitting the calm morning that was just coming to the little Italian city.

-If he will ask u to be with him now?

-I will refuse, too much time lost.

-And if he had the reason.

-No reason can correct the past we had.

I took the while looking to the side of the place where my shirt was lying as I saw a vibration.

My mother was inviting for a reunion as there was some family event I had to be at.

I rolled my eyes looking back at the hotel we spent the last week at.

It was peaceful and now this shit.

My father was turning 60 and I had to be at the night party in Sydney and the fact that I hated the idea was on my face.

I replied shortly telling that I will come as I too the shirt gouge back to the hotel to take the shower after the hot night as the time was limited and I was going back to the airport to return back to the city of the hell and paradise.

I threw my bags on the floor opening the windows to let there air in the flat that was locked for 2 weeks as I turned on the coffee machine making the fresh coffee as I had to prepare for the evening that happened to be tonight and the mood was the same as the state I got onto the long ass flight.

I pulled the classic outfit with the denim input the black and navy combo was right the half of the suit in classic and additional patches in jeans textile as I pulled boots organising the hair as I took the keys going to the car.

I didn't plan to drink there at all.

I bought a big bouquet of flowers for the mother and the alcohol bottle for the man I hated with whole heart.

I pushed the door as it was open to meet a lot of faces watching me as I saw the mother rushing to hug me as I placed the flowers into her hands as I smiled greeting the people I hated.

I pulled the smile up approaching the father of mine as I gave the present receiving a nice glare.

-U are so successful now!

I heard some comments of the relatives.

"I have to drink now as it's gonna be a looong night here"

I had to relax or I will just burst the anger and tiredness right there.

-Do u have a girlfriend?

The one of the relative told as I saw my mother coming closer to help me.

-I am gay.

I said calmly making most of people gossip as they were shocked at my announcement making my mother shut up and walk away as she didn't expect me to be so straight.

The doors opened and my brother entered as I pulled the glass drinking it all through.

The night we had, ran through my head again as I pulled the waiter taking the other glass.

He went through making the mask face as always polite as hell. He greeted as relatives were on him.

I looked at the terrace top as it was the nice place to escape the whole crowd as I landed there taking the whole bottle with me.

I looked down placing the whole body on the pile of concrete as the eyes searched for the one and only Bang Chan who was hot as ever.

I rolled my eyes as he was the best communicator of course, making the people being proud.

I saw him searching through the crowd as he looked up meeting the face of mine as I looked the other way.

I ended up talking to some people there as the evening hit as the idea of escape was the necessary as alcohol was hitting inside and I needed to control myself.

-Hey.

I heard the voice of the him behind and i turned to see the one and only. His posture made him taller than usual and handsome face with a glass is this hand as if he wanted my attention.

-Hey.

I said dryly.

-Can we talk?

-We are talking right now.

-I mean in private.

-I don't see why we should.

I looked truly to the side as he just bit the lip coming closer.

-Felix, I saw u crying, what's wrong?

-It doesn't matter anymore, so u can relax.

He wanted to come closer as his hand touched mine as he suddenly jumped away from me as our father came closer smiling as he started his stupid conversations as I escaped in the toilet deciding to leave this event.

I opened the door closing it as I heard a loud hit and a hiss.

-U have a week.

Were the only words I heard as I opened the gates to find the Chan sitting on the ground.

-What a hell is going on?

I said as he tried to cover the nose bleeding as I came close kneeling to him.

P.S. I left some hint in this very chapter)....if u know...u know... 

i have my b-day coming up so soon, i  so much not like this day but it feels different this year, maybe my mature part is growing and i am kinda excited for the trip i organised again. 

I am going to Budapest, Hungary for the weekend as i can't afford more myself. I am cryign as i had not enough time to buy tickets for Milan skz( i was exactly planning to go to Italy this summer and now i will go there to rest and won't see skz.  The only hope is the tour that will be cause i am not standing again 10 hours. 

My last days in am in chaotic mess of creativity. ..