Unconditional Events \ Chanlix

When u lose u mind

Part 19

I had days full of training that I constantly ignored Felix, by working for me and my mother to be finally free and as we moved to another flat close, she had better possibility to work in the better firm allowing me to focus on me and my goal, I was int he yard of the school drinking as Han jumped in front of me.

-Guess what?

-U fucked?

I smirked as he placed his head on my shoulder nodding.

-Minho?

-Yes, sir, it was fantastic man, I felt it was the thing we had.

-Are u sure, he is alright with u being unserious?

-I don't care.

-Gosh, Ji, u have to be more considerate.

-Like u and Felix.

I bumped him and he giggled taking the drink as Bin appeared in front of me giving some snacks to eat.

-How is it with parents?

-I haven't appeared there for weeks. I had work and trainings, but it's okay, I am worried about Felix, I kinda ignored him for a while, and I feel bad, I have this thing that I am doing something wrong, I don't want to damage him.

-Are u sure, he looks sad, talk to him.

-I should but it looks done.

-Then talk things out with him. It's alright to take time and figure it out.

Bin said as I stood up walking past them as I saw Felix appearing with IN on the bench.

-Hi, can I talk to u?

I asked as IN disappeared in seconds giving us space.

-Did I do something wrong? Chan?

He asked looking at me.

I gasped.

-No, it's not the thing, I had a lot of work to help mom and also I had trainings. I am sorry.

He gasped in sadness.

-I mean I am still figuring this out and I don't want to fill u. With regrets, Felix I think we are rushing things. I want to slow down a little.

-But slowing down isn't a thing to u, u bang people, constantly and what makes it different as me.

I pushed him to look at me as his glare was on me.

-I have no feelings to those people, Lix. But it doesn't change the fact I don't want to pressure on u. What will I feel if we wake up and u would regret it all? I can't taker it back and can't guarantee it won't be.

His eyes looked at me with a slight annoyance.

-U ignored my messages for weeks, that's no justification for the fact u avoid me, Chan.

He brushed me off as I nodded.

-Look, flower, I am a wreck and I was always like this, I want to try something but I need time, but if u want to go in right now, I can't give it to u, I am sorry, but u are free to try anything, u are young and I won't hold u back.

-Are trying to say that I should go and date someone? Is it your way of trying to get rid of me?

-No, no, it's not.

He looked devastated.

-I just need time to calm down and grow into something better than just a fuck boy, Felix.