One In A Million

Chapter 39

19/11/2014

These two last days had been the longest of my life ever. Not just of the fact that I hadn't close my eyes during the night, not only because of the sharp pain stabbing my whole body, not because of the tears I had cried, but simply my emotional flow was too unbalanced to had keep me on the right sense. I had spent one whole day at hospital, on Julia's request, and his friend's the doctor, who had took my case. Hopefully that on that terrific night he was one of the many on call doctor, and had covered me by filling a normal patient record, and had send it to the central files unit. The special victim file, related to people who had been victim of an assault had been kept safe and sealed was Julia's possession, signed it to make it looks official, and put the pictures of my bruised body marks that Julia took with her phone. They say it was just in case, and at least, there would be a trace and record that I had been a victim. I so wished never this file would be used for something, never. Better that darkness had swallowed it.

In All of that emotional flux, I couldn't stop thinking on Marco, this one had been calling me like a hundredth of times, texting me asking where the hell I was. Poor him, he should have terrified and worried about my unanswered calls and texts. Each time his name was appearing on my phone screen, tears fell from my eyes, from the deep cut like my heart was feeling. Gosh, If only I could tell Marco everything, reveal what just happened, what I used to be. I had promised him that there would never be any secrets between us, no dark , nothing. But what was I actually doing to him, wasn't it lying?. Or worse, betraying Marco. I had been hiding the truth to him for too long, but in a way only to keep him apart and protected from the monster, that was the only way to solve that problem, temporarily. Yes, above all that, this is what was hurting me the most. And that idea of escaping was cutting me deeper.

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DO Train Station

My heart was racing at the speed of light, while every muscles of my body tensed by the pressure of that intense stress. Also, it seemed that time was running slower than usual, or perhaps that it was all in my mind.

Julia and I were sitting at the passengers waiting area, waiting for my train to arrive. Behind my dark sunglasses, I had a brief look at the giant display panel, that shown the arrivals departures, destination and eventual delays. Mine was set to arrive in fifteen minutes. It felt so awkward, to be sitting there, for a train, aware of the reasons that were forcing me to do so. I always appreciated to travel by train, it was affordable, comfortable and funnily enthusiastic to me, but it wasn't for today. I so wished that this train experienced an engine failure or something like that.

"Do you think it's the only solution to that problem Brooke. Look at you, you're in pain, and still a bit feverish [Julia checked my forehead temperature]. Come on let's go back to my apartment, and wait for a few more days until you feel slightly better." Julia asked with a pitiful voice tone.

"I don't care of the physical pain, I can fight it, and I wish, I so wish I could return back home with you, but it's just impossible. I have to go that way Jule." I spoke with a weakened trembling voice. Too much of emotions took the grip, as well as the physical exhaustion.

"And you gonna sacrifice all that is dear to your heart, your family, friends, and Marco. Did you ever think of him, how he's going to feel when he'll,realize you ain't around anymore, did you Brooke.?"