𝐄𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐦; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

38‣ 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙮 𝙖𝙨 𝙨𝙞𝙣

"Do you want to come home with me?"

The words that slipped Jungkook's mouth should have been insignificant, and they would have been, had Hyunjin's faith in what Felix and he had not shaken. A greater man wouldn't have lost it but even statues crumble if made to wait and Hyunjin was just a man. His anger was only a bitter taste when he registered the words Jungkook had so casually asked, what was worse was the repugnant taste of the doubt that Felix might say yes; the fear.

The rattling in his bones is the scare of Felix's agreement because maybe Felix feels safer in Jungkook's falsely woven narrative instead of Hyunjin's truthfully engraved safety. Before the fear succeeded in eating Hyunjin alive, before the anger overtook all his senses and drove him to kill Jungkook right this second, Felix was already turning around softly, catching Hyunjin's attention and halting his breathing

"Thank you for the offer, Jungkook. But I'd rather stay here," Felix smiles politely at the man and fails to notice the way his hopeful expressions melt into disappointment. His eyes crinkle by the end like he's a hundred percent sure about his decision and it's so contradicting, everything about his behavior is so contradicting

"Here with Hyunjin"

It's said like he's making a point, casually but in a sense that came off as if this was the most obvious thing, softly but surely, like he's clarifying some muddled news and Jungkook feels his ribs tighten around his heart. Hyunjin feels his skies crack open and fall right over him. Felix chose him. It's not over. The relief that collides into Hyunjin is raw and true, viscerally existing and he cannot feel his fingers for a second, eyes frozen on Felix, on his soft smile and his gentle eyes, his straightforward but polite words ringing in Hyunjin's head like that's the only thing he'll ever hear and he doesn't mind that whatsoever

'here with Hyunjin' is on a loop in Hyunjin's mind, Felix's soft voice is so pretty he wishes he could put it in a vessel and get drunk off of it his entire life to come. But that's not possible, because the blue-haired has turned to look over at him, his smile has dimmed but it doesn't seem as if he is dreary or upset. The forced politeness wiped off of his face and all there is left is the glimmer in his eyes when he pores into Hyunjin's frozen ones, mellow and assuring but Hyunjin isn't sure if he's making this entire situation up or if it's true

Felix doesn't say anything more, doesn't wait to see what the disappointment on Jungkook's face would turn into as he spares Hyunjin a glance that is unreadable before he takes over the stairs and leaves the men alone with the sounds of his slippers. No one speaks a word until Felix is truly out of sight, both of them a little startled by his revelation even if it wasn't anything grand. Jungkook's heart ripped and sprawled out before his feet and Hyunjin's stitched back up, it's a bizarre bullet to bite.

The men that were masquerading all around Hyunjin's manor and his living room stopped a while ago, the minute Hyunjin stepped in vision, and now there's just pure silence surrounding them. At least it was present for ten seconds before someone barged through the doors, the sound of guns clicking and getting ready to shoot before the footsteps died out and a little surprised pant echoed in the quiet manor. Hyunjin looked to his left, mind still reeling from Felix's decision but body reacting to his year-long instincts, hand tight around the gun he still gripped

"Jeon?"

Minho's voice is distant, like he's speaking more to the air in the vast room than the man he's called out to but Jungkook reacts nevertheless, the emptiness in his chest filling with annoyance pretty quickly. He twists on his heels, glaring down at Minho with anger in his brown eyes. "What the fuck?" Minho doesn't give him a chance to speak when he looks over to Hyunjin in disbelief, the hand that was aimed forward dropping and the large gun in it colliding with the side of his leg. Hyunjin licks his lips, feeling his heart delay in beating because he can't get Felix's eyes out of his mind and the hope that keeps swirling around in his mind