𝐄𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐦; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

10‣ 𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 7 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨

4 days pass and Felix finds himself running in an endless circle of self-pitying, self-destructive and clearly pathetic habits. His sick leave is over but he can't seem to bring himself out of bed, gladly, his boss is too much of a sweetheart and had given him—as he had said it— 'all the time he needs' and Felix doesn't need to worry about his job for at least a few more days, but the trouble was the rest of his life that still needed to be taken care of. His house was a mess and so was he, it seemed as though all the dreariness he would have to go through in his entire life had just been dumped on him in these short few days

He had no energy to do anything and he'd just been rotting in bed, if he did manage to gather a bit of energy it would be used to take care of the pets he had adopted and within a few minutes of getting out of bed, he'd be tired enough to hop back in. Ever since Momo and Sana's engagement, or simply put—ever since he discovered Chan had been basically cheating on him while they were together, he had turned into this lifeless zombie. Well, this transition had happened after he left that hotel room, the notorious hotel room where Hyunjin had made his body a temple and where they found wonderland.

The night that occurred four moons ago went down a little like this; When Felix had suddenly burst into tears, Hyunjin had done nothing, but in that nothing, he had done so much. He wasn't even aware of how him agreeing to remain inside of Felix, how him grazing his fingers against his back and how him holding Felix close did everything to the broken boy, everything that helped him get off of his agony for the night. All the time Felix spent shedding tears, Hyunjin just quietly sat there, staring at the blank TV and wall in front of him, smoking and trying to think about business but his mind kept dragging him back to the way Felix kept his length warm and how he fit between his arms

Felix was grateful that he didn't say anything and long moments later, he was done with crying and had softly asked Hyunjin for a smoke—

Felix had his head rested against Hyunjin's shoulder, had the taller's length still inside of him and his arms still around his as he held the slim stick in between his fingers and against his lips, inhaling the smoke and exhaling calculatedly, his mind was occupied by a thousand thoughts in this current minute but above them all was the sensation of Hyunjin's skin against him and him inside of him, his sorrow sat side by side with him but didn't dare raise any squalls of agony within him, knowing well its murderer was right there and with a single kiss that man would crucify it.

Felix was calmer, his mind still ringing like tornado alarms but he was composed when he blew out the cigarette by rubbing the butt against the headboard of the bed and sitting up straight, staring directly into Hyunjin's eyes and exhaling a deep breath. The man on the other hand was calm, a cigarette sat seductively between his plump lips and his sweat hadn't dried yet, even when it had been nearly an hour since the two stopped their physical exertion there were still a few drops of sweat running down the sides of his forehead

Felix watched him with admiration, it was no lie he found the blond insanely attractive and his slanted but gloomy eyes made something twist inside of the blue-haired, making him all the more aware of the length poking his insides. A soft shade of pink spread on his cheeks as he, without any thought, grazed his free hand against the side of Hyunjin's temple and cleaned off his sweat. The act made Hyunjin's eyes switch a flicker but it was shadowed yet again in a mere second. Felix tried not to focus on their close intimacy as he licked his lips and began speaking 

"My phone" his voice was soft and Hyunjin didn't break their eye contact, kept it damningly fixated on Felix as he shifted just slightly and grabbed the latter's mobile phone in a swift move, holding it in front of his face. Somehow, his determination to keep their eyes locked and hold Felix so tightly makes the blush on Felix's face darker even when he wasn't one to blush, even with Chan it would be rarely that he'd blush but with Hyunjin he seems to blush like he's a maiden planning rendezvous with her Lord in the ancient times. He gulps, licks his lips and grabs the phone from Hyunjin's hand