𝐄𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐦; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

54‣ 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙨, 𝙤𝙘𝙚𝙖𝙣𝙨 𝙙𝙚𝙚𝙥

The rain is still pouring from the skies, it seems as though the heavens are just as much in despair as Felix. When Hyunujin had offered to take Felix home, he hadn't thought exactly how far home would be and how difficult it would be to reach it right now in these circumstances, lucky for them, his hotel was only an hour of a drive away and Hyunjin had enough senses present to think of a temporary residence until the morning.

now that they sit here, it feels too dreadful to even breathe at this moment, the atmosphere inside the car is thick with melancholy, Felix won't look at Hyunjin or even open his eyes, he insists on keeping them shut and his face as obscured as he can from anyone's vision whereas all Hyunjin wants is to fix this as quick as he can.

Minho had been kind enough to get the man his shoes while Seungmin got the car ready, allowing Hyunjin and Felix the privacy they needed, but even then, Felix hadn't said a word and Hyunjin practically had to carry him to the car, holding his hand and waist and guiding him through the rainstorm that wasn't just from the skies but his own heart too

He had abided by Felix's silence, not speaking a single word, even if it was of comfort, and with that quietude the hour seemed to fly by, with Felix refusing to acknowledge life and with Hyunjin worriedly eyeing him every five seconds. Even if he had remained quiet, his hand never seemed to let go of Felix's thigh or his knee, keeping it in contact with Felix, for assurance or for himself he wasn't sure.

And with moments that felt like centuries, they were finally there, parked in front of the place Felix had been to before, the infamous hotel he had screamed Hyunjin's name in a few too many times, although today he fails to even remember it because he won't even spare it a glance. Hyunjin exhaled a heavy sigh, turning off the engine and turning to look at Felix, watching him curl up in the seat with Hyunjin's jacket still around his shoulders and his eyes closed

Hyunjin's heart breaks for the umpteenth time that night, his arm dying to hold Felix in them but he silences the urges for only a minute and gets out of the car, walking over to Felix's side who doesn't even realize the vehicle has stopped. Unlocking the door, Hyunjin is hesitant to say anything at first, just standing there watching the silent man who has his hand over his eyes as if to protect them from something, but Hyunjin knows he's just trying to hide

The rain falls on him and something rips within him, watching the sight of Felix so helpless makes him want to destroy any idea of vulnerability inside of the blue-haired, to make him feel safe and dependent. Without thinking twice, Hyunjin leans over and removes Felix's hands from his stomach and forehead, wrapping them around his neck and startling the boy into opening his eyes, staring back at Hyunjin with shiny ones

Hyunjin grits his teeth, doesn't waste another second in sliding his arm underneath Felix's knees and around his waist, scooting him out of the car seat by holding him in his arms as he turned around, spared a glance to the guard to take care of the rest and beelined towards to entrance of his empire. Felix would have let out a surprised sound had he been entirely present at the moment

his eyes took in the side of Hyunjin's face, raindrops dancing on his perfect features like the waltz of the angels and demons alike, his eyes squinted not to protect them from the unwarranted water but to disguise his obvious wrath the cause of which Felix was unaware of, his breath is knotted in his chest, underneath all the heavy blankets of the misery he was living and the feeling of Hyunjin holding him in his arms feels divine

and he hates it

he hates it because he feels safe in this hurling storm, like Hyunjin being here makes everything right even though it's all falling apart, because he feels warm in this blizzard of chaos, like Hyunjin is the fireplace he had been waiting to sit by all his life and this is all too bad, it's so bad that it makes him want to cry all over again the more he watches Hyunjin