𝕺𝖚𝖗 𝖒𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘

~ 17 ~

As Farah's quiet snoring could be heard in the room we both shared, I kept thinking about it all....

Mayday.

The test.

My brother.

My unreasoning anger at Price.

My memories.

Simon.

So many things were happening to me at the same time. I want to be the example for my team, I want to be the same sergeant I was months ago, I want to be the same sister I've always been to Keegan, I want to respect Price and I want to .... want to remain Simon's wife.

Simon and I were in a fight. We didn't speak to each other, didn't even look at each other. I felt bad about myself for causing him harm but at the same time I felt very upset with him.

He lied to me about Pavia, right to my face.

I looked at my watch and it was only 4:02 am. If I had slept 2 hours it was a lot, I felt tired but my mind was very active thinking a million things at the same time.

I got out of bed slowly so as not to make any noise and wake Farah up. I grabbed my clothes and my boots, headed towards the bathroom and started showering.

After a few minutes, I looked in the mirror and started to do my hair. My hair was long...it was very dark black that brought out my blue eyes, just like Keegan. I made an English braid in my hair, Farah was still sleeping, I took my phone, my tactical gloves and left the room.

The hallway was cold and lonely. It was dead silent although you could hear the helicopters, planes etc. outside.

I walked to the outskirts of the dormitory building and walked toward the office building. There were not many awake soldiers or officers.

When I got to the floor of my unit, the whole floor had the lights off, it was freezing cold. It was like that early morning chill that makes you feel out of touch with reality.

I sat down at my desk and opened my computer. I had only one job, to study for the exam that was today. I had to prove that I was still the same sergeant I had always been.

I know I have worked and fought too hard for this position , I can't lose it this easily. I'm not going to let myself fail now.

More hours passed and it was already 6:10am when I heard boots approaching from the elevator hallway.

I just stayed focused on my computer.

"Morning." Ghost's thick and british voice was heard next to me.

I looked up to see him, he set a cup of coffee and a sandwich on my desk.

"Thank you.." I said accepting the coffee and sandwich.

He just nodded his head in agreement and continued on his way to his private office.

His act made me smile...yes I was very hungry but I didn't want to waste time looking for my breakfast when I could continue studying. But, seeing him bring me breakfast...it was already another league. My heart was pounding like I was a freaking teenage girl watching her crush walk by in the halls of the school.

The hours continued to pass and little by little the others arrived until Price arrived at his office, he was the last one to arrive.

To be honest, I'm nervous.

Price and Ghost came out of his office- "We have a meeting." Price said as he walked to the meeting room.

We all started to get up from our chairs and walked to the meeting room. I ended up sitting right next to Soap while on my other side Gaz sat down. It was always Ghost who sat next to me...but this time it wasn't like that. He sat in the farthest chair possible almost to the corner of the room.