A MAN TO HONOR

chapter five

Taehyung

I look at Dae-Kyeong coming towards me with a bottle of white wine and two empty glasses

She puts them on the small table in the living room and pour the amber liquid in each glass

" It's only 5% of alcohol...I hope it's not a problem " she apologizes

" I... actually drink wine Dae, with more than 5% of alcohol, but don't say it to my mother "

She laughs softly

" Did you grow a rebel soul over time? "

I shrug while I take a sip

" It's just when I'm nervous, I don't take it as an habit "

She looks at me for a moment before she speaks again

" I thought... that when I came back here, I would have found you already.. married "

I glance quickly at her

" You would have already known about the news even in Italy "

She laughs again

" Oh yeah, not wrong...the big Kim Taehyung is getting married, of course I wouldn't miss the scoop "

It's drizzling outside and I love the sound of it, it's quite calming

" So...are you going to tell me about that girl or not? "

I turn my head to look at her, half confused and half surprised

" What girl? "

" The one who makes you so... different? "

I shake my head

" There's no girl "

She raises an eyebrow

" How honest is this sentence? "

" One hundred percent honest "

She laughs again

" I know there's something off , I know you too well Kim Taehyung "

" It's just... fatigue " I reply as I nod my head to make it more convincing

there was a time, I would have told her everything that was bothering me, no matter the situation, but now...I can't talk to her about Kailah, my feelings are very confused, vague and inexplicable

And I also don't want to go into the details of how I met her and what we did...

Dae-Kyeong was born and raised in the same conservative type of family as me, we got the same strict education and I know she would be flabbergasted if I dare to tell her about what happened in that toilet

I'm not really proud of it myself...

But I also don't regret it

It's on top of my most exciting and craziest things I did in life

It's actually the only one in the list

for one night, that woman made me a wanton, just a few minutes in her arms made me forget my morals and values, my mother would have had a heart attack if she knew... what we did was scandalous in my family's ethics, and yet...I would have done it again, if I still had a chance to do it

not because I want to enjoy the pleasure that her arms provided me, but because for once, I felt free, free of my actions, without worrying about the straight line on which I was forced to walk all my life

that woman gave me wings

Just to burn them right after

I still don't get what I did wrong