A MAN TO HONOR

chapter eighteen

Kailah

We remain silent for a moment, my hands nervously tormenting the silk layers from the bottom of my dress

Only the soft instrumental song playing in low volume in the car makes the silence less heavy

He picked me in a new car today, I knew the jaguar and also the one his chauffeur is driving, and this model is totally different

I'm not surprised, he is literally the CEO of an automobile company, I guess he has as many cars as shoes in his collection

But I'm low-key feeling intimidated...

I feel like I'm never gonna get used to how rich he really is

This is one of the reasons why I was so reluctant to get linked to this man, no matter what type of relationship we had

I tend to forget sometimes because cause of how humble he manages to be, but at the end of the day, he will always be THE Kim Taehyung

After he left my house two days ago, I started to think about something he said to me

The fact that he had to lie to his mother about the real identify of the one he was sending flowers to just makes it clear for me

I will never fit into his lifestyle

Dae-kioug or whatever her name is, is probably the perfect woman his mother fancies

That's why he had to say her name and also send flowers to her as well

I'm not complaining though, I don't want anything serious with him either and I'm okay to be a secret in his life as well

But as I was going deeper in my thoughts, I realized that... Taehyung himself knows that I will always be the woman to keep in the shadow

Cause once he'll want to get married, have a family... I'm not the one he will turn toward

And I don't know why, it saddened me a little

Even though I want to burn these stupid butterflies in my stomach, but for now, they're still here

And they make me so emotional about the fact that I will never be a woman his family would appreciate

I don't want to be in his family...I don't want to be in his life

But to know that they would have rejected me if I wanted to hits harder than I thought it would

I jump, surprised, when his hand rests on mine on my thighs

" Kai, what are you thinking about to be so absent? " he asks softly

I take a deep breath

" Nothing important, did you say something? "

I glance at him quickly, his profile side is so perfect as well, his jawline, his nose, his pink tinted lips and his dark voluminous hair covering his eyes are absolutely a blessing for my eyes

My heart tightens

I feel the impostor syndrome

What am I even doing with this man?

I mean...look at him

I know I'm pretty, and to be honest I'm also rich enough to be qualified as wealthy...but compared to him, will I ever be enough?

" I said that I thought you would have already changed the music " he says, referring to the song playing in the car

I shake my head

" No, tonight is your night... So we're listening to jazz " I utter with a forced smile

He looks at me