A MAN TO HONOR

chapter thirty eight

Kailah

I sit on the table, looking at Suki working with her team while I'm eating those dessert samples for her upcoming event

Bellatia told her what happened and now she is playing babysitter

I don't know if they think I'll jump on the other side or something

I've been broken before, so I think... I'll survive this time again

I'm not here yet, but I'll be here

But for now, it hurts so damn much

But I'll still eat these cakes cause they're actually so good

And who knows? Maybe they'll take my pain away

Suki finally comes back and sits in front of me with her PC turns on, ready to type like a crackhead

" How are you doing? " She asks

" How many times are you going to ask me this today? " I retaliate as I dip my spoon into the tiramisu cake

" I want to make sure you're fine "

" I'm fine, this tiramisu cake is a ten, you should add it to the menu " I say to go to another topic

She looks at me silently, pensive

" What? " I ask with an eyes roll

" Stop lying to yourself, you don't look fine "

Before I can respond, her colleague comes over and sits by her side

The famous Alessio we all want her to date but she refuses

" Miss Diaz, which one you think we should keep ?" He asks me with his deep Italian accent

Showing me two pieces of fabric that look literally the same to me

" They look the same " I retaliate

" Per l'amor di Dio, non sembrano affatto uguali! " He says, putting his hands in the air, offended

I laugh softly

I don't speak Italian but as a Spanish speaker, I know what he means

" Sorry, I don't have the skills for this job "

" What are you doing in life ? " He asks me

" I ride horses " I say

He nods but I immediately add

" And men "

He coughs outrageously, almost choked by his own breath while me and Suki burst in laughter

" Well....good to know " he says before he walks away, ready to show these two pieces of fabric to everyone until he finds someone who picks the one he likes

" You would make a cute couple " I whisper to Suki as I lean forward

" You should focus on yourself instead of playing cupid " she retaliates as she rolled up her blazer's sleeves

" Why focus on myself when I can focus on you? The last time I listened to you and focused on myself, it didn't end well " I say as I taste a raspberry pudding

" You don't know yet, you haven't talked to Taehyung yet "

" And I think we will never talk again, this whole situation is so messed up, and I think...maybe it's better that way "

" No, you don't think that " says Suki softly

" What can I do ? No matter how I feel, there's just things that I can't control " I say as I shrug my shoulders