A MAN TO HONOR

chapter eleven

Two weeks later

Kailah

I can barely listen to what the coach in front of us is saying, my body is a bag of pain right now, I can feel the sorrow in my muscles

Why the hell did I agree to join Suki for her pilates class?

This early in the morning, I could be doing something else but not this pain machine they dared to call sport

Having the perfect body isn't for the weak though

I try to think of better things to make time pass faster

Things like pasta, the beach, unlimited brunch buffet, a trip to Ibiza

But it doesn't really help, my back hurts like hell

When the coach I had mentally called the devil finally ended the class, I almost passed out.

I sit on the ground and flood my throat with cool water as a reward for my endurance, even though it was hard for me

" How was your first pilates class " says Suki with a smile as she sits next to me

" Suki honestly, never again...next time, let's do something really fun instead, like...just stay in our respective beds and sleep in  "

She laughs as she checks her phone

“Come on! It wasn’t that bad,” she retorted, “it’s good to stretch your body ”

"I think after this class I'm flexible enough to pass the entire Kamasutra book in my next sexual encounter." I respond vaguely

" See ! I guess that's a good thing for Mr Kim Taehyung " she says with a smile

I sigh softly

It's been two weeks since there's no Mr Kim Taehyung in my area

He didn't even come to the club after he said that he wanted to stop

I didn't even tell the girls about it yet cause maybe...I was secretly hoping that he would've changed his mind once again

" What? Why did you sigh? " Asks Suki, alarmed

" There's no Mr Kim Taehyung " I say

Suki blinks repetitively under her bang

" What? I thought you were... together, I mean not together together, but you know what I mean "

I shrug as I stand up

" He wanted to stop, so we stopped "

She pouts, disappointed

" You guys couldn't even make it together for a week "

" The day after the party, he came to my house in the night to ask me to stop..."

" That sucks ! " She retaliates

" Not at all, I'll find someone else, I already knew that things like that weren't for him, I told you that...see, I was right "

We both stand up, ready to go to the changing room

" But you said that you couldn't have sex with anyone else after him, what you gonna do now ? "

"There's probably better than him somewhere, I just have to find him" I said playfully to make fun of the situation.

I know deep down that I would rather touch myself every time I ovulate than let a man traumatize me with bad sex

And to find the 'better than Taehyung', normally I would have to search for him

I won't risk being traumatized by men who can't even maintain an erection for two minutes while I'm in the process of finding someone better than the Kim Taehyung