A MAN TO HONOR

chapter forty two

Kailah

I drive wildly in the street, I keep checking every corner for some car crash or something

I can't be optimistic right now, the only things I think about are just the worst scenarios ever

If anything bad happens to him, I'm gonna hate myself for the rest of my life

Cause the last memory he would bring of me in his tomb would've been me being rude to him

Being totally heartless and telling him that I don't love him even though I'm dying with love for that man

For the entire week I was trying to give myself all the possible reasons to stand behind my decision and stay away from him

I kept avoiding my family's questions about him

My poor mother!

She kept asking about him all the time, sending me traditional food recipes for me to try home with him

I'm honestly glad they don't know about Taehyung's marriage announcement

But that also means that I'll have to tell them myself

I bite my lower lip, anxious

" Please God, don't let anything bad happen to him, please " I whisper again, desperate

My eyes filled with water as the anxiety makes my hands shake

I think I only pray every new year but I suddenly become a prayer

" I'm sorry... I'm so sorry for being rude to him the last time, protect him for me please" I murmur, my voice trembling

I've never felt this level of fear before

The feeling of losing something precious, that's what I feel right now

I know I'm exaggerating

Maybe he is fine

But I just can't stop thinking about the worst

I wipe my tears with one hand when a mustang caught my attention on the road

I know it's Jungkook's car

I've seen it many times now that Jungkook always come to pick Bella in it when she is out with us

Bellatia told me that he was chasing Taehyung, so if he is here, Taehyung is not so far

I honk repetitively behind the mustang to get his attention

The car slow down its speed and I can finally see the driver

" Taehyung..." I literally scream when I recognize him

" Kailah " he replies, but his voice quieter than mine

" Pull over " I yell at him

He nods then we both park the cars on the sidewalk

I walk towards him, my emotions are mixed

He doesn't look drunk to me right now

And there's no Jungkook over here

Did they trap me?

Of course they did...

" how could you do this to me, I really thought something bad happened " I shout at him, relieved but mad that they lied to me

" You didn't leave me another choice I know you would have refused to see me again if I asked you " he retaliates

" Well don't you think there might be a reason for that? " I retort with a frown