Chapter 48
Lolo almost jumped out of his seat when I harshly opened the door in his room. Taka niya akong tinignan.
"Harhyson? Anong ginagawa mo—"
"You were right."
He slowly stood up. Malakas kong sinara ang pinto. I don't care how loud it is. I will fucking do whatever I want to do.
"You were fucking right..."
"What the hell is your problem?"
I sighed roughly.
"I can never do anything correctly. I wasn't in my right mind."
His lips parted.
"I was a fucking loser and... I am pathetic for keeping this all to myself wherein fact I have everyone else to lean on. So, yeah... you were right."
Naguluhan siya. He probably doesn't know where I'm coming from at kung bakit sinasabi ko ang mga salitang iyon out of nowhere.
I'm just... full. My mind's too occupied. Kariza's daddy issues... ang mga pagtatalo namin ni Maelle and this... my fucking feelings! Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano ang dapat kong unahin!
"If there's anyone... who actually died... it should have been me."
"Harhyson..."
"Or goddamn it, put your fucking cancer inside me so I can leave this fucking world faster!"
"May sira ba 'yang ulo mo, Harhyson? Ano bang pinagsasasabi mo?!"
"She broke up with me."
Nangunot ang noo niya.
"Your girl toy?"
I glared at him.
"Why do you all assume that I wasn't being serious with her?! I love her! I fucking love her! Every single detail of her... mahal na mahal ko iyon!"
"More than the previous one?"
I stopped to breathe. Or... yet... to think.
"You can now see what the problem is..."
Was I just being poisoned by those statements? Dahil may supporting evidence... kaya ako napaniwala?
Lolo was right again. I am easily swayed.
"You should have assessed yourself before entering into another relationship..."
"I know."
"You should have talked to me—"
"I know! I fucking know! That's why I told you... you were right all along!"
"Stop shouting at me!"
Huminga ako nang malalim. As this frustration gets deeper and deeper... the only resort left to me is to voice all this out. Let my emotions reveal themselves. Dahil kung hindi... maaari na talaga akong mabaliw.
Sinipa niya ang paa ko at inambaan ng suntok.
"Sit!"
Kagat-labi akong umupo sa kaniyang kama while he headed to his swivel chair. Again, I'm surprised that he can still move around so fast. Where is his energy from? Need I remind him that he is old and sick?
"You still love Kariza, don't you?"
"Honestly?" Nagkibit-balikat ako. "I don't... know."
"What do you mean you don't know?"
Maelle is right. If I really love her... why would I care about Kariza's problem? Knowing my personality, hinding-hindi ako makikialam sa buhay ng iba lalo na at wala na kaming relasyon.
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