If I Fall |NEW|

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It had been 3 drawn-out hours of typing and deleting. I was growing frustrated at how unproductive my attempt at finishing this paper was going. I couldn't focus!

I slammed my laptop closed and shoved it in my bag with my journals and textbooks. With that, I got up and walked out of the library.

I mumbled under my breath as I made my way to my car. I snatched the door open and slammed it close. I hit the stirring wheel, tears threatened to spill as my anger grew.

I didn't know what to do, I was trying my best but everything distracted me. I kept catching myself staring out the window at the cars driving by or listening to conversations around me.

I drove off and made my way home.

       Just as I pulled up to the house my phone rang, "Hello." I answered. "Bitch I think I'm pregnant," Sasha said on the other side of the phone.

My eyes bucked, "What!?" I sat up straight.

"My period hasn't come, it's been two weeks." She added.

"I'm on my way, we'll go get some pregnancy test," I said. "Okay." She hung up.

I sat in the living room while Sasha was in the bathroom. My heart was beating like I was the one taking the test. The sound of the toilet flushing made me stand up.

"You finished?" I asked outside the door. She walked out, "I can't look." She held it in a paper towel. "Well I'm not touching it, you just pissed on it." I stepped back.

"I washed it tho." She stepped forward. "Sasha." I stepped back giving her a look. "I'm scared." Her eyes watered.

"Well we can wait until you're ready, but I'm not touching that," I said.

She sat the wrapped tests on the coffee table. "I'm not ready to be a parent." She flopped on the chair, placing her face in her hands.

I'm not good with comforting, but I'm here for her and I'm listening.

"I'm young and fine as fuck, a baby would ruin me. On top of that I can't have a baby with Vince! He sells drugs and probably kills people." She cried.

"Shit!" She shook her head.

"I wish I was like you. A damn virgin, then I wouldn't be in this position." She said making me hold back a much-needed laugh. Sasha being a virgin is crazy considering she lost hers when she was 13.

"What am I going to do?" She looked up at me with red eyes. I shrugged, "I suppose you'll put on your big girl panties and do what you got to do, but I feel like you're jumping the gun because you haven't even checked the test. It's been about ten minutes." I said.

"You're right." She reached for the test and opened it.

Her mouth dropped and so did the test. That alone told me all I needed to know, "Time for big girl panties?" I asked. "I guess fuckin so..."

     She sat in disbelief for a good twenty minutes before saying, "Ima call you later okay, I need time to think." She stood up. I stood next, "Alright, take it easy babe, everything is going to be alright." I said as she walked me to the door.

"Thanks." She said dryly.

I walked out.

     Night fell and I was just sitting in my car listening to some gospel.

Bing!

I looked down and saw a message from Chase that read, Haven't heard from you today. You good?

I texted back, something like that.