Winter's Love

•Chapter 9: Let the Past, Be the Past

Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvelously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sky. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones.
-Thich Nhat Hanh

1 month later

Qasim

"O, when am I going to officially meet your family?" I questioned, standing in the doorway.

"I mean, you met my mini when I was in jail. I know your mom, but what about your pops?"

She looked at me through the mirror applying that cake shit to her face. One day I was hiding that shit.

"You might think this is selfish, but I don't really want you to meet my dad" she spoke, twisting her mouth.

I was waiting on her to crack a smile, laugh, or something. She didn't crack a smile or anything.

I started putting on my Chucks. I could feel her staring at me as I tied my laces.

"Where my keys at Honey?"

She pointed to the nightstand and I grabbed them.

"You are making a big deal out of nothing. Plus, you haven't let me explain" she stammered, looking like she was about to cry.

"What you need to explain? From what you said, you ashamed of a nigga obviously. I guess it's okay for me to eat tha pussy, and take you on dates- but I ain't good enough for ya boogie ass daddy." I spat, mugging the fuck out of her.

She stood there biting on her lip still. I waited on her to at least say something. Try to rectify the shit she just said. Nothing.

I wasn't one to leave a situation up in the air like this, but Honey was on some next shit. I would have felt better if she said it had something to do with us only dating for four months, but nothing. Just standing there like a fucking mute.

"Is it okay if I still pick Trin up today?" she questioned, trying to get me to look at her.

"Yeah, and I'll come get her at 4:00 when I get off" I replied, snapping my watch close.

"I thought you were staying"

"Nah, I gotta be to work early, and I don't want to mess up Trinity's sleep."

She looked at me and rolled her eyes. Yeah, I was being petty, but fuck it.

"You being real petty right now"

I decided to stay quiet. The way I was feeling, I was bound to hurt her feelings. I tried to kiss her forehead, but she dodged me.

"Fuck it" I mumbled, and made my way to the door.

She was right on my heels, as she grabbed my arm.

"I have a reason Qasim" she whispered, and I almost missed it.

"I'm sure you do, but I'll let you tell me when you are ready. No pressure Honey." I stated, walking out the door.

One hour later

Honey

"Bitch why you moping around here like that?"

I shook my head. Liese has been asking me about my attitude all day. I've just been denying how I feel. I didn't say anything because I wasn't up to listen to her lecture me.

"I know you a lot better than you think. Bitch, we damn near been friends all our lives. The fuck you do?"

I shook my head