Diary of an *insert qualities here* Person

Chapter 23 (final)

Friday May 12 2023

Today has to be one of the most embarrassing days of my life. I am actually so mad at myself.

So, I was just enjoying a normal Friday. It was the weekend, I had a swim competition the next day, yeah. Then I hear everyone talking about how we're going to get our shots today. Needle shots. We got them in like October, but we needed more doses. In October, I got THREE needles and I wasn't scared or anything. Today I was only getting two. Painless, right? WELL! Since I already knew what the needles were going to feel like, that made me really nervous. Once we got to the forum, which was the 'waiting room', I was kind of nervous. Which was weird because I have a history of never being scared of needles. When I was three and I got a flu shot, I watched the needle go into my arm, and I didn't cry or anything. While Emma and I were sitting, we made it our goal to be the last ones because we both agreed that being last was better. Even though the lady taking us into the room was like 'anyone who is anxious should be going first'. No one listened to that. There was another girl who was also super anxious and she did the same thing Emma and I did.

We waited around for a while, which wasn't fun. We were talking to Sky since she didn't have to get her shots today. Lucky. Anyway, then the lady came to get Emma and I. We were the last two. We walked up to the door and the lady asked "Who's more anxious?" Emma pointed at me. I disagreed in the moment. I think she was more anxious. Then we went onto the stage, which was where they were doing the shots. There were three tables for shots. So Emma and I sat down and waited for our turn. I was actually so scared for some reason. I don't actually know why. We got the same shots at the beginning of the school year, and I wasn't scared at all. I think I was more scared this time because I knew how the needles felt. They weren't the best. Soon enough, someone was done with their shots, and it was my turn. I sat down and was basically crying my eyes out. I HADN'T EVEN GOTTEN THE SHOT YET. I actually felt really stupid in that moment. The lady was just asking if I was sick or anything, and wanted me to confirm my address and birthday and stuff. Sky also came over and watched me cry. I think Aiden also looked over at me. Ugh. Why did he have to be there when I was getting my shot? Anyway, I just sat there crying while the poor lady just tried to stick the needle in my arm. I kept pulling my arm away every time. I think she finally got annoyed because she just shoved it into my arm. Obviously, I was still in tears. And I still had another needle to go! It was honestly so embarrassing crying in front of Sky and AIDEN. I tried my best to hold still for the second needle. I kind of felt bad for the lady doing my shot. I was still crying, even though the shots were done. I actually got really dizzy after the shot, which is described as a 'bad side effect' or something. The same thing happened when we got the shots earlier this year, but I never said anything. This time, it was bad and the lady noticed. I ended up having to lay down on the ground. Out of the corner of my eye, I watched Emma get her shot. She was also crying, and I saw Aiden laughing at her. Rude. At least he didn't laugh at me. He was probably shocked since very few people have seen me cry. Emma cries all the time. Anyway, I ended up having to put my legs up on a chair to help with blood circulation to my head or something. I looked really stupid. The only people that were still there were me, Emma, Sky, and Aiden. Sky was comforting Emma while she was getting her shots, and I wasn't sure what Aiden was doing. Once she was done, I looked up and saw three people looking down at me. The three people that were still on the stage. Then they left and sat somewhere else. I really don't want to admit this, but I was jealous that Emma was getting all the sympathy, even though she wasn't the one who had a bad reaction from the shot. I DID, and yet Sky and Aiden sat with HER and comforted HER. I don't like admitting being jealous about this stuff, but it does get to me. They were sitting and talking and laughing while I was staring at the ceiling. Eventually, Aiden was told to go back to class. Sky volunteered to stay with Emma, so they were still there. I did get an apple juice box from the lady, which was good. Eventually,Emma and Sky were told to go back to class as well. They did bring me my lunch, since apparently eating something might help. I just sat while all the people doing the shots prepared for the next class coming.