Diary of an *insert qualities here* Person

Chapter 21

Wednesday April 19 2023

He broke up with me

Yes. Aiden, the guy I've liked for SO long, finally told and then dated, broke up with me today. Why can't anything go right???? I think my life is just cursed. Anyway, I will now elaborate on what happened. It's probably going to be very brief because the entire thing was kind of a blur and I don't remember a lot. Yeah.

Anyway, so we had a dance competition today meaning we got to skip most of school. We went into class for attendance and announcements, and then went downstairs to get on the bus. I sat with Emma in the very back. The drive felt really short. Probably because we drove over an hour to our last competition. Once we got there, we put our stuff in a room. The senior dance team got to go sit in the audience. The juniors were before us, so they went to the practice room. We watched a bunch of dances. Most of the dancers were around pretty old, and it was a lot more competitive than our last competition. I actually felt bad for the juniors because they were all 9-10, meaning they were the youngest. We watched the juniors perform. Emma and I already knew that the judges were going to give them a higher score just because they were younger and 'cute'. Soon after, the seniors went to the practice room to get ready. We practiced the dance a few times, but there was another group that kept butting into our dance which was slightly annoying. Soon, it was time to go backstage. We did our routine and I had a lot of fun. I also thought we did really well. Then we went and sat for a bit before going onstage for adjudication. Cora and I were in the room getting our shoes, and we didn't realize that adjudication was already starting. We walked into the theatre and then realized that all the dancers were onstage. We ran through the building and got on the stage just in time. We probably looked stupid because we were late. Obviously, the juniors got some sort of stupid award. It wasn't even like a first place award or anything. They probably just wanted to give them something because they were little kids or something. Yeah. Then we got our awards and stuff. The seniors got diamond which is the highest rank. Then they started to do overall awards (this was only for the morning session). They did elementary school awards, and WE GOT FIRST PLACE!!!!! We won tshirts, a pizza party, and $100. YAYYYY!

Then we packed up all our stuff and got on the bus. We actually stopped at a Dollarama, which was slightly weird. Good thing I brought money. I ended up buying a vanilla coffee, some gum, and these strawberry sour candies. Then I gave the rest of my money to my sister. When I gave it to her, I saw she was holding a ton of stuff. I also said I would only give her my money if she promised not to snitch on me that I was drinking coffee. Luckily, she agreed. Then we got back on the bus and went back to school. We got there just after last recess started. Emma, Cora and I just hung around in the classroom. By the way, I was definitely high on caffeine and sugar so I was hyper. Then the class walked in and of course, everyone was asking about how we did at our competition. Then we just did random stuff until the end of the day.

Then the day ended, meaning I had my park date with Aiden soon. I was beyond excited, but also super hyper. Okay, I need sleep. I'm going to finish this later.

I'm back and now I'll continue. So, Emma and I started walking like normal people. Soon, Aiden just comes up behind us and starts walking with us like always. While we're walking down the path, he finished the iced coffee Emma bought for him. Then some random eighth grader came by on his bike, and Aiden gave him the iced coffee bottle (which was made of glass). Then that idiot literally smashed the bottle on the ground. I'm not even joking. He smashed it and then biked away. Aiden and I cleaned up most of the glass while Emma decided it would be funny to put popcorn in his bag and jacket. Yeah. We were actually there for like twenty minutes just cleaning up all the glass. Then we started walking like normal because obviously. We saw Emma's mom waiting to pick her up, so we didn't really get to talk. Then Aiden and I walked to the park. We had a whole debate about which bin the glass bottles go in. He basically said to me "You're part of and environmental organization, you should know where it goes" He had a point, but I actually wasn't sure. I just said recycling because that's where I thought it went. Then I went and sat down on a ledge near the splash pad. Then he said "I need to tell you something" I already kind of had a thought of what he wanted to say. I thought he was going to say he wanted to break up. I kind of said that I think I knew what he wanted to say, but I didn't specify. Then he said it.

"I think we should break up"

That was the sentence I was fearing most.

Based on how he was acting the past few days, I kind of saw it coming. Just like last week, I didn't cry because I was wearing fricking mascara. I didn't want to turn into a raccoon. Then stuff was kind of awkward because yeah. Anyway, that got super awkward and so I was kind of like "Did you read my search history or something?" Because earlier this week, I searched "How to know if my boyfriend wants to break up" and I literally told him that. Yeah. To be honest, I don't even think I was thinking straight. Then I made him explain why he wanted to break up. His reasons were

The entire class basically found out (literally no one knows or cares)

He "changes his mind" a lot

He thought the relationship was going too fast

(Present Evelyn: these are pretty good reasons ngl)

 Then he just stood up and started walking away. I decided to follow him like I always do. Then I was just like "This was all my fault. If I just hadn't told my friends, none of this would have happened" then he proceeded to say it was his fault too and blah blah blah. The walk home was pretty awkward. When we said bye, I wasn't sure where I was going. I kept turning and I never saw the Sobeys, which was where I should have come out at. I eventually decided that the only person that could help me was Aiden. Then I just texted him and I said "I think I'm lost" then he was like "Hold on".

About a few minutes later, I see him running down the road out of the corner of my eye. Yes, he ran down the road to find his ex girlfriend when she got lost. Then he had to help me find my way because I'm extra like that. I decided to tell my friends that we broke up. While Aiden and I were walking, they FaceTimed me and saw I was walking with him. Aiden also refused to tell them why he wanted to break up, so I had to horribly explain it.

My friends seemed slightly sad for me. Not Theo though. She just called me a sl*t. Sometimes I question being friends with her. Some days we're friends, some days she is insulting me and calling me the f slur.

Then I walked home and texted Aiden a bit. Obviously, I was still upset about everything. I also told Andrea about it. Her response was "Get over him. He's an ass"

Thanks a lot, Andrea. Your response really helped cure my depression.

Anyway I'm going to be depressed for like the rest of the school year. Bai~

Author's Note: Idk what to say here. My life hasn't been really interesting lately. However, I have made some new friends so I guess that's progress since I'm antisocial.