Serendipity (Book 2)

iRewind by xXACCEBXx

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iRewind by xXACCEBXx

TV » iCarly
Rated: K+
Language: English
Genre: Romance & Hurt/Comfort
Characters: Freddie B., Sam P.
Words: 3,183
Published: Jun 7, 2010

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There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't have the words in my head
Days are passing by
And all the leaves are changing too
But time won't change the things unsaid
Cuz everything is different now
I'd really like to tell you how
How I wanted you here by my side
I know what I said but I lied
It looked like a laugh but I cried
Now I wish I could push rewind

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From the second I woke up, I knew it was going to be an exhausting day. Even before I was awake, the thick smell of bleach hit my nostrils, and I knew that my mother had been here early.

Officially, she comes bi-weekly, but when she sneaks in almost every morning, she can't avoid cleaning something, which usually gives her away. Most of the time, she pretends she was never here, but when I got to my kitchen, I could see that she'd left a box of stuff, with a note.

Fredward, I just stopped to drop off this box of junk I found in your room. Considering tonight, I was thinking you might want something out of it. By the way, I cleaned your bathroom. You've really slacked off. Your shampoos and conditioners were totally out of height order, and you forgot to write the expiration dates on them, so I sent them to a lab to be sure. Until I receive the results, I left some anti-tick shampoos and conditioners in their place. You can never be too sure! Love, Mom

I shook my head, making a mental note to stop at the drug store and pick up new hair products, before opening the box. I was trying to remember what she meant, "considering tonight."

On top of the box was my yearbook from senior year, 2010. Ten years ago. I tapped the cover, finally remembering my plans for tonight.

I'd been trying to forget about it for weeks. Everyone I'd been friends with ten years ago, I had lost touch with. Carly, Spencer, Gibby...Sam. When I left for school in Boston, I left with the unfulfilled promise of keeping in touch. I hadn't even moved back to Seattle until a few months ago.

I walked across the kitchen to start the coffee maker, and poured a cup before taking the box and dropping onto my couch.

I vaguely remember packing this box, saving it as a time capsule of everything I was leaving behind, but I couldn't remember what I had actually packed.

Under the yearbook were some of my old awards, my acceptance letter to college, and an old video camera, a dinosaur by today's standards. Under the camera was a shoebox of old DVDs, and I could see that most of them were episodes of iCarly.

For old times sake, I put one in the camera and watched it on the tiny screen. I fought back tears as I remembered my friends, remembering why I didn't want to go to the reunion.

To me, Carly and Sam were just as I left them. Eighteen and beautiful. Not that I believed they had grown old or ugly, but they would never again be the Carly and Sam that I was friends with, and on occasions, more than friends with, all those years ago.

That was probably part of it. I had never been proud of having feelings for both of them. I was always the winner of a losing game. When I had one, I was neglecting my friendship with the other. Not that Sam and I had ever officially dated. What we did couldn't even really be considered as going out. Another regret.