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Chapter:26: JIMIN I'M SORRY

BUSAN

Although it was not a serious relationship, it took a significant toll on Jimin to move on. He is putting in considerable effort to settle back into his routine life, but he continues to be plagued by lingering thoughts of that person who still holds a piece of his heart.

Jimin finds himself grappling with feelings of longing and nostalgia, constantly reminded of the memories they shared together. Despite his best attempts to move past the relationship, he still feels a deep emotional connection to that individual.

Each day, Jimin struggles to push aside thoughts of what could have been, replaying moments of happiness and warmth that now only serve to bring him pain. He yearns for closure and peace of mind, but the emotional attachment he holds prevents him from easily letting go.

Nonetheless, he moved on from that relationship, or at least that's what he tells everyone. He shrugged his shoulders and laughed it off, making light of the situation whenever it was brought up. It was clear that he was trying to put on a brave face, but deep down, there was still a hint of sadness in his eyes. Despite his efforts to appear unaffected, there were moments when the mask slipped, revealing the lingering pain that he was trying so hard to conceal.

His father offer words of comfort and support, but he would brush him off with a dismissive wave of his hand, insisting that he was fine. The truth, however, was that he was far from fine. It was evident in the way he would sometimes stare off into the distance, lost in his thoughts. But he soldiered on, pretending that he had moved on, even though his heart still ached with the weight of what could have been.

It's closed chapter he should move on why did he let someone this close? He was scared of exactly this. After his mother dead he could not detach from her. He could believe for years that she is no more. Once he gets attached he take that personally.

"Uncle why are you not coming for my marriage? What lame excuse is this?" Yoongi (jimin cousin) called Mr park after finding it out from his parents that jimin and Mr park is not attending his marriage.

"Yoongi actually I'm not feeling well a little and even Haneul exams are close so....

"Lie" yoongi spat. "Uncle stop behaving as if jimin got divorced"

"People look at him differently yoongi you don't understand. This is village they still are stereotypical about broken marriage promises. It's all my mistake jimin is suffering" Mr park said with lot of guilt. Jimin is ready to move on but people constantly remind him about that.

"I can understand uncle but please tell jimin to involve in something go out and enjoy" yoongi felt bad for jimin. Younger us not picking his calls. Jimin bubbly personality suddenly changed to mature one nobody is liking that.

"I'll book tickets to him please send him here. If he mingle with people and enjoy a little bit with family he might forget some thing" yoongi suggests.

"Please do that son. I'll be happy to see my son all happy" Mr park sniffed. Jimin suddenly walked into his room but stood puzzled to see his dad crying.

"What happened appa?" He asked with concern.

"Jimin I'm sorry dear. It's all because of me. I'm sorry" he started to cry loudly. Jimin rqn to his father and hugged him.

"Calm down appa. It's not that serious how you think" jimin tried to console his dad.

"Please move on my son. I know you are trying hard to be fine" Mr park run his hands on jimin hairs.

"No, Appa, you misunderstand this. It's taking time but I definitely move on. I promise" paused "You've always taught me the principle of reciprocation, right? That you get what you give. I gave him all the love I possibly could. I thought if I was kind and loving enough, it would return in folds. But now look at what happened...it broke my heart." Jimin hug his dad speeding very maturely.

"Nobody did anything to me appa. it's me who expected a lot without knowing my limits. He is a free bird appa he will ask freedom eventually. I failed to notice it" jimin smiled something empty in his heart. He is ready to let go and move on.

"The irony is, I was easy for him. He just experimented with me. He lead me in to see whether we work or not and he broke up because he felt we don't work. I should have noticed this but I was so engrossed by the thought of loving him. It's funny how relationships can be so complex yet feel so simple in the moment. Looking back, I can see the signs were there all along, but love has a way of blinding us to the truth" he sadly smiled.

"Despite the disappointment, I can't help but feel a sense of relief now that it's over. Maybe it wasn't meant to be, or maybe it was just a lesson I needed to learn. Either way, I know I'll be okay in the end. Life goes on, and so will I" Jimin deeply sighed accepting his mistakes. If he did not love him it waoukd have been easy there was no chance to make this situation into a big deal.

"Can I ask you something?" Mr park asked watching empty eyes of jimin.

"Please attend yoongi marrige and stay there for a while enjoy your time"

"No no appa I can't hospital...

"It's okay. Take a break you are not the only doctor here"

"Appa what about you....and and Haneul?" Jimin panicked.

"We will manage that baby. Please go have your time" his eyes held so much worried.

"Are you perhaps kicking me out of your house park daiko?" Jimin joking. Mr park chuckled at jimin atleast he is trying to be happy.

"Kicking out? Who is kicking whom out. If it's jimin hyung please do. He is such a drama queen always crying" Haneul walked in with blast suggestion.

"Appaaaaa" jimin whined complaining.

"appaaa" haneul imitated same. Jimin stood up to catch him.

"Hanni I was thinking the same I should kick him out his tears are too expensive for me to handle" Mr park walked inside the kitchen to cook something.

"You will understand my value when I go out of this house" jimin said standing alone in living room.

"Please go so that I can claim my property rights" Haneul throw few of jimin cloths in his face. Mr park started to laugh loudly.

"You know, it's just not fair! Dad left that orphanage house to you. I mean, what makes you more deserving of the beach view, huh?" Haneul asked his serious concern

"Oh, you've got to be kidding me, I study better than you. That counts for something, doesn't it? And plus, you can't even clear simply test!" Jimin fired back.

"Test? Seriously that's what excuse you can come up with looser?" Haneul rolled his eyes. Jimin pulled him holding his ears. This little rascal is talking much.

"What can I do, god only gives one good thing to an individual. Look at you- you are good at studies similarly I'm got good looks" he held jimin hands in his ears hissing dramatically because jimin never hurt him.

"So you are saying god did not give good looks to me?" Jimin gasped.

"Obviously duh" Haneul roll his eyes. Jimin chuckled seeing his confidence it reminds him of jungk- well, nobody. Haneul notice his brother smiling face go from happy to confuse to sad.

"Hyung I'm really sorry. I helped him during all those pranks I never knew he would hurt you like this" he side hugged jimin and put his head on his brother lean shoulder.

"You did nothing wrong hanni" jimin sadly smiled rubbing his hairs.

"I returned all his gifts to grand-Mr jeon and Mrs jeon" Haneul said in anger correcting his relationship into formal.

"Hanni why are you saying like they are not our family anymore. They are our grandpa and grandma no matter what" jimin pat his bother head.

"They started this-

"It's not their fault. They never wanted this" jimin cut him before he could disrespect elder. He hate it how his bother is anger they are elders before anything.

"He is not saying anything wrong jiminah" a deep stern voice interrupt both brothers.

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END OF THE CHAPTER.