2024: my digital diary

07.13 Hauteville 02

i am still in hauteville with sonny. we are here looking for an apartment to rent in istanbul, we have high chances of getting a really nice place with a great sound system and record player. today is saturday, i have tickets to go back home on monday or tuesday. ive been here since last sunday.

we havent done a lot, mostly just hang at his place and smoke weed at night. we often sleep together in the same bed and we are getting more and more confortable around each other, physically i mean. like we are always caressing each other's arm, or leg, sitting very close together, things like that. honestly we look like a couple, only of course we are not a couple or do anything that is actually like that.

i found out the other day that martha, his girlfriend, is a catholic. like she goes on catholic camps very often and she goes to church and all of that. i mean that she is a practicing catholic, not catholic as in culturally catholic. this striked me not because of the fact itself but because i didn't know, and i've been friends with sonny for a long time and somehow he had forgotten to mention it. she came over on thursday night to have dinner with us and we bought her two books as a gift.

we were in a shop buying candy and i saw they had some books for sale and i said we could gift her with 1 or 2 books and so i payed for them, sonny will pay half back whenever he can.

tonight martha called asking if we want to go to have dinner to her hometown, to a sushi place.

on wednesday we went with his brother tony and their uncle and aunt to a river area, to swim, play board games and eat at a restaurant. it was fun, i got along well with his family. sonny and i gave each other massages and i spent at least an hour or two sitting in between his legs, like he was behind me on a chair and his legs were around me and sometimes also his arms, in front of his family and his brother.

there was also paulie's birthday on tuesday i think, we rode down to sun valley to have picnic at a park by a lake. i didn't feel like socialising much so i spent my time playing with the ducks and also near the lake, where thème were some children feeding the water turtles.

i think that is most of what we have done. coffee and croissant at a café downstairs, also smoke weed every night.

yeah that's it. only relevant thing is what i already said, i can feel how we get closer and closer to each other as the days go by. i wonder what point our friendship will reach once we move in together to turkey. i also afraid of getting burned out or fighting because of being around each other too much. we haven't had any space from each other in the past week. so far we are good but you know, i'm always scared of what might go wrong.

anyway, i'm going to shower. we are planning on going to sun valley this afternoon to buy some cassettes and then we'll go to sushi with martha in her hometown.