After[Undertale]

Ch4-A little less alone

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So yeah... now I have to explain Sans and Papyrus...

Do I have to? I could-

Yeah I do... the whole point of me making you up in the first place was to... process my thoughts...

So... for starters... for about the first year and a half down here, I didn't hear from Sans.

Like at all.

Papyrus had only messaged me a few times...he didn't even join the group video calls. It doesn't take a detective to figure out why. Sans was protecting him, which makes a lot of sense. Even now I'm not great but me back then...

He had good reason to want to protect him.

So.. for a year and a half down here i heard basically nothing until...

I was... in...Snowdin and I was sitting on a boulder humming to myself and-

"hey. flowey." I still remember the coldness of his voice, I had recognised it immediately.

I had snapped my "head" around.

"S-Sans? ...annoying dog you scared me" I took a deep breath, "woah it's been a while..."

"yeah. yeah it has." And then I saw that look on his face and immediately jumped off the rock and started backing away.

"Hey... w-why are you looking at me like that?"

I knew why.

His eye glowed blue.

"Sans... Sans come on... we can talk about this right?"

Suddenly he blasted me with his Gastor blaster and a pain jolted through me. He reset. He slammed me against a tree. He reset. He plunged a bone into my stem. He reset. He reset.

He reset.

He reset.

He reset.

He did this over and over, each time as painful as the last.

But internally I knew this was karma... I had done this to everyone down here. To him. To Papyrus. And he was unable to do anything... because when I showed up and my determination outweighed his, he lost his resetting abilities, I left him powerless to stop me...All he could do was remember it all... he had every right to be mad... hurt... vengeful.

Eventually he stopped for a moment. And just stared at me blankly, his blue eyes gaze piercing.

"S-Sans I know it doesn't mean anything but... I'm s-sorry...im so... so... sorry"

"you're right. it doesn't." He raised his hand and a gastor blaster rose.

"W-ait!"

He gave me a silent look that communicated an annoyed "what?"

"...what you're doing... doesn't make us even, me being trapped here doesn't make us even...I don't get to be even... and I'm not asking for you to forgive me... because you guys sparing me was more than I deserve...but if this just begins to make things up to you then... I'm not going to do anything to stop you" I said quietly my petals drooping down slightly, quivering.

Yeah I know... not what you would expect coming from me right? Even though I remember it so vividly I still can't believe it myself. 99% of the time, I'm in a state of numbness, anger or sarcasm but this... was one of those weird moments.