After[Undertale]

Ch26-A promise

...a few years ago

=)

I perch myself one of the Grillbys stool, using a vine to pick at the plate of fries on my table with a sigh, staring at them blankly.

I look up at the bar, trying not to look around too much...makes it easier to ignore all the emptiness.

"Hey Grillby...I've got some things to get off my...metaphorical chest and it's...not like I have anyone else to talk to so..."

I smile a little

"...thanks."

...the smile falls.

"I just...It's not like I ever liked monsters being down here...None of them ever understood me. I remember watching them all of them talk, laugh and complain about things that seem so small to me...meaningless."

My expression becomes a slightly more genuine smile as I pop a fry into my mouth.

"Yet...now they're gone and I've realised,
in hindsight , watching them and trying things out to see how'd they react was pretty good entertainment, which I know isn't morally great but try not to judge...heh..."

I laugh nervously.

"I mean...it was like a reality show if you think about it...but I guess the whole interactive part makes it more like...a video game? Every storyline just waiting to be explored to see what happens."

I pop another fry into my mouth.

"More than anything it was a good distraction, messing with other people's lives, watching them from afar, resetting over and over...instead of dealing with my own crap. I know great coping mechanism Flowey."

I sarcastically applaud myself with my vines..

"Being serious though...I know it was a terrible way of coping...I knew even back then. Yet, it was nice you know? Actually mattering, being able to have an effect on other monsters...but being able to avoid making any serious mistakes or having to worry too much about what I do thanks to resetting...a gift and a curse in itself...which is it's whole seperate thing which I've already rambled on about to you..."

I sigh. Pushing the fries around with a vine.

"Honestly...out of all the thousands choices I've made to get every unique outcome I would trade it all in a heartbeat to change a few I made before I had the power to reload and reset... Before I got in control of everything...if i chose differently I wouldn't be...whatever the hell this is supposed to be."

I gesture to my flower body with a self-deprecative look.

"I mean...I could have been King of the Underground! How sweet does that sound? But nooooo...I get to be the soulless evil weed instead, just because of a mistake I made decades ago. It sucks!"

I groan pathetically, scooping a handful of fries and eating them.

"And now...I get to stay in the Underground alone...I mean what the hell do I even do now? I've seen everything in this place...there's no other monsters to watch...I've mastered every dumb skill in existence. For something I thought I'd wanted I'm already starting to regret this... being noble and doing the right thing is hard."

I eat more fries, looking up.

"I mean I'm already talking to a wall which probably isn't a great sign."