Unknown Happen Stance

Chapter 12: Mal Has An Anxiety Attack

"You can work on the Empathy map ask other people what they'd think you should put in it if they were in Your shoes." Lonnie stated. "You will have plenty of 5–10 minute breaks in this school to stop and chat and get to know several different types of students, Musa."
"That's harder than you think, Lonnie, back where I come from a ton of stereotypes exist and I'm pretty sure I meet one already the unfriendly needy one who would want to be friends with that?"
"If you were so needy why did your fairy friends risk their lives to give you back your voice? Do you really think the only part of you they pay attention to and care for is your singing and song writing?" inquired Lonnie. "I certainly didn't do that to even kids who weren't going to try to be my friends like Mal. When she first came here she was determined to stay closed off even with Auradon Prep kids who wanted to welcome her, Musa. When I saw she could do hair makeovers not that I was aware she first did with illegal magic casting but that's beside the point I thought what she did for Jane was pretty sweet and the hair style told me she was talented with magical spell makeovers. I went up to their room to make friends personally asked for a makeover myself and made it very clear that I was aware they may not like me because of being the daughter of hero and that I wouldn't be offended if that was so. And as an extra gesture of kindness I offered to pay for it being villain's kids they had zero ways of putting roots on the Auradon mainland how would they learn to be kind if they couldn't keep their feet grounded? Evie said yes to that payment offer because she needed a ballgown for the coronation of Ben's two years ago. Then she tried to style me herself and I politely declined her. "And said, "No, I want it cool like Mal's and you know what Evie wasn't being nice about Mal's hairdo in front of me I was offended for Mal cause Evie said, "Really the split ends too? Who talks about their best friend like that?! So not even the sweetest girl on campus Evie is perfect she had some of a slip up when she transitioned from the Isle to Auradon. We are just who we are people who make mistakes, Musa. And there are no stereotypes here and no status quo though Audrey daughter of Sleeping Beauty's Aurora likes to think so exists but she's highly wrong. Come on, you said you need Sword fencing practice and I'm supposed to audition Chloe Charming for the team next year completing my final exam student assistant internship which means I'll teach every student participating in it just like my Mom and Dad did in the prime of their youth."
Mal was panting and pacing back forth in circles in the main hall of Auradon Prep. Thoughts swimming and racing in her head. "I know I told Ben Uma forgave me but can I forgive her? Can we really be reconciled? Is us becoming friends again really right? What will my other friends think since I kept Uma's whereabouts unknown? I haven't even confessed or apologized to Audrey for originally stealing her first and ever only boyfriend and not explaining the spell wore off before I even knew it wore off on Ben myself. I'm a terrible friend and an even more horrid Princess. I am such a stupid Beast. Why do I keep comparing myself to King Beast? I need to stop doing that! I wish I had a way to toss these horribly terrifying negative thoughts. I could burn them away before but Fairy Godmother has such a stupid magic ban and the same thing about graffitiing everything. Art was my literal coping mechanism and now I don't even have that. My head can't handle all this pressure. I thought I had overcome this but I guess everyone else has relapses so this must be my third. I'm still not over my Aletophobia, the fear of Imperfection, nor apparently am I over my Fear of Commitment to the people of Auradon States either. When will I stop not feeling good enough for myself to like myself? Gosh my mom really did a huge number on me! I'm so insecure right now."
"Did I just hear you say you have Aletophobia and a fear of commitment, Mal?"

"Lonnie, how did you hear that? Oh no was I panicking out loud in this hallway?! Please don't tell anyone, you girls, heard that? I do not want the stupid Auradon News to get me in trouble with Beast he's already mad at me enough!" Mal groaned barely taking a breath.
"I don't see any illegal cameras spying on you, Mal, you're in luck next Princess of Auradon Prep. You agree right, Musa & Chloe?" Lonnie answers.
"Sure." Chloe answered the 15 year old as the daughter of Cinderella. Mal was 18 years old as were the rest of the core four VKs. Lonnie was 19 years old.
"Totally, we got your back." stated Musa. "You didn't backstab Lonnie when one or two of her friends did backstab you when you first came."
"You told her, Lonnie, about how your hair stayed the same after Audrey and Jane insulted me because I was a villain kid."
"Yes, I wanted Musa to know the genuine you, not your shadow caused by your Mom, Mal you have a really good judge of character and you keep promises really well." compliments Lonnie. "There are other ways to release anger besides using dangerous magic and your artwork is really pretty."
"Unfortunately Ben & Fairy Godmother never liked my taste in graffiti art I had to take it down once I moved to the palace last year so annoying."
"Wait your best friends designs clothes and sell them why can't you open up a graffiti art shop? I am sure the Citizens of Minglania would purchases your sketches and even asking you to co work with Evie on adding designs of yours to Dresses."
"Musa, wow, you're a genius I didn't even think of that but I should but wait I'm a Princess I'm too busy to think about myself now or be myself." Mal muttered.
"That's not actually true, I was raised a Princess and my Mother Cinderella made sure that she had time to herself and to be herself and I am sure if Belle knew you were feeling overwhelmed she'd help you out with certain tasks." Chloe remarked. "You are a really strong woman Mal just like Lonnie and her Mother Mulan. You've always been stronger than You've ever known it is why you survived your Mom without your Father by your side."
Chloe grabbed Mal's cuff of her sleeve and squeezed and a warm shiver went up Mal's arms.
"Thank you that means a lot coming from the daughter of the Princess who insisted all generations have a future to look forward to after all Cinderella is 2nd best to the one who started it all."
"I do have a wise Mother in most circumstances." sighed Chloe immediately.
"Well, I see a very balanced Princess in a 15 year old's body, Princess Chloe, that's good the first lesson of a warrior Lesson Number 1 as my Mom taught me is Balance. Mal you should join us and get rid of some of your excess energy wouldn't want to be rigid with all that anger flowing through your veins to come out and hurt any fellow VK friends you left on the Isle of the lost this afternoon. Sword fighting is an open door for blowing off steam, Mal."
"I will do it even though I suck at it, Lonnie."
"Mal, convincing yourself you will always suck is the way to get everything constantly wrong. My Mom thought the same thing about herself one day before she joined the war giving herself an identity changing haircut. But that negative evil thought is a downright big fat liar!" Lonnie reminds Mal quickly. She brought out a portable CD Player a Disney Song was playing from Movie people don't like to watch.
But mixing with Mulan's iconic singing voice actress was Lonnie's.

Lesson Number One
M: Earth & Sky,
L: Day and Night
M: Sound & Silence
L: Dark & Light

Mulan sang in a Flashback. "One alone is not enough.
You need both together!
Winter and the summer!
The moon & the sun!
This is Lesson Number One —ne!

For like a rock for example as a soldier
One must be hard unshaken in their conscience beliefs huh-huh!
Like an oak you must stand firm in your heart too huh-huh!
Cut quick like the blade in my hand
And think fast on my feet
Have ample wise strategies at my disposal!
And most of all you must be Unafraid!
Surrendering to your fears that lets them win over your sense of self!

Verse 2: Like a cloud
You are soft as bamboo
You'll bend in the wind
Creeping slow
You're at peace because you know
It's okay to be afraid!
I know it sounds so contrary
But be afraid—
but do not allow your fears to control your life's path for you!

Like a cloud
I am soft as bamboo
I'll bend in the wind
Creeping slow
I'm at peace because I know
It's okay to be afraid
But be afraid—
but do not allow your fears to control your life's path for you!

Chorus: One alone is not enough! One alone is not enough!
We need both together! We need both together!
Winter and the Summer times of reflections and times of joy and love.
Both occur under the moon or the sun!
Winter and the Summer & the moon & the sun!
Winter and the Summer & the moon & the sun!
This is Lesson Number One–ne!"

Lonnie's voice cuts clear as the Chorus repeats itself joining in response to her Mom's epic encouragement now.

Chorus: (Young Motherly Mulan Singing & Her Daughter Lonnie join together to sing this chorus.) One alone is not enough! One alone is not enough!
We need both together! We need both together!
Winter and the Summer times of reflections and times of joy and love.
Both occur under the moon or the sun!
Winter and the Summer & the moon & the sun!
Winter and the Summer & the moon & the sun!
This is Lesson Number One–ne!
This is Lesson Number One–ne!
This is Lesson Number One–ne!
This is Lesson Number One–ne!"

"So first off every one needs to get into their Zen space before we practice positions and practice dueling, Mal, never forget to breathe I know you are a slow breather but with how shaky and tense you are the horses in my realm would buck you even when they have only one eye left to see anything with."
"Horses are that sensitive to anxiety and fear?" gasped Mal breathing in and out.
"Yep, they are, but believe me it is worst to fall off a flying carpet compared to being bucked by a horse a horse doesn't make you fall off from a height of epic proportions." stated Lonnie comfortingly. "But statistically more people fall off horses by leaning too far forward compared to when horses buck or rear themselves up in a complete chaotic frenzy."

WinxDynamix this is some movie Descendants trivia Audrey doesn't know I think Mal needs to tell Audrey that love spell wore off in the midst of the year with her unawares I think you should add that to your Descendants crossover it is a clear point everyone misses in the Descendants if Audrey had known this she may never have felt like becoming the Queen of Mean but I have a feeling because she didn't know this is really what caused her turn to the side of evil besides the mystery voice from Maleficent's scepter which is definitely not Maleficent but a woman's voice it was too low to be Maleficent speaking from that scepter.