24 year old Kendia Brown's life has always been great, even through the miniature of bad times she's stumbled upon, still and hardly ever she complains. Who would when life's mostly great?
Being a mother of a 7 year old Liam Davis Jr. Kendia has he...
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As I lay across Jonathan's lap, barely watching the TV, I fiddled around with my ring thinking about Drew and about what he might be doing since I hadn't heard from him all day and soon after that my mind drifted off and I started thinking about how my and Liam's relationship started and ended. It was all so much at once going on in this crazy little brain of mine, but for the most part, my thoughts lingered on Drew. I missed him.
I wondered, am I falling in love with Drew or am I just using him to occupy my mind and time so that I don't think of Liam.
Is whatever that's between me and Drew building on sand? Is he gonna change the way he treats me in the next couple months or years? Will he abuse me like Liam has? I don't know the answer to either question, neither do I know the future but I'm sure as hell scared to be hurt again, mentally and physically.
Honestly, I thought about giving relationships a break and spending more time with just my family and friends and also utilize this time to better my relationship with God but Drew is so unexpected and he's such a good man to me but I'm not sure if he can repair what it is that has been broken within me. I'm not entirely sure I can fix myself so just imagine him. I'm damaged goods at this point.
Though we've only been together two-three days, I can't help but to miss him beside me. He has become my comfort and what feels like my support, and he's become my Drew. Yet and still I can't seem to pick up the phone to call his chocolate fine self because I think he's really mad at me. In addition, my pride won't allow me to be the first one to call. He's the man so he should call me and we'll solve our little issue.
Simple right?
No, I'm not a feminist, I just think that's what a man's supposed to do, especially if he claims to love whomever the woman is.
"You're getting married," asked Jonathan.
“Huh?”
“The ring,” he says. “I see that you've been playing with it.”
I looked up at Jon and said, "I mean, I'm not so sure. I just woke up one day and saw the ring on my finger. He hasn't even proposed. All I know is that it was after we did the do. I'm not even sure if this is an engagement ring. It could be a promise ring for all I know."
"Typical Drew."
"What do you mean?"
"Don't worry about it."
"By telling me not to worry about it, that's making me worry about it.”
“Well, don't because it's nothing to really worry about.”
“Okay. So what about you? Do you ever want to get married?"
He scratched his head and said, "I don't know anymore.”
“What do you mean!? I think it's almost 93% of the world's population that would like to get married.”
