Dancing with the Devil

Chapter 16

The whole ride to wherever he brought me, silence filled us. Hindi ko alam kung saan niya ako dinala, nasa mataas kaming lugar, overview ang magulong at nagliliwanag na syudad. 

We were near a cliff, there's no other vehicles that passed by as if this was private property. Walang nagsasalita sa pagitan naming dalawa, para bang sigurado kami na dahil sa pagkakaiba ay mauuwi lang kami sa sigawan.

"Drop that suitor of yours, and play with me." 

I look at him bewildered. Naunahan ako ng gulat dahil sa kanyang sinabi, he was still looking straight not minding my glares. He really knows how to annoy me...

"And who are you to order me?" Tinatapatan ang kaniyang sinabi. That alone made him look at me, that's right. Tignan mo ako habang nakikipag usap ka sa akin.

"I can provide you and your needs," proving a point. 

My eyes travelled down to his hand on the wheels, he gripped on it like his life depended on it.

"And?" Taunting him. This talk is thrilling me, somehow I wanted to push his buttons— to know his real intention. To know the point of this talk. 

Did Kuya tell him? That drunkard!

"Clearly he can't do that, but I can."

"What are you, my sugar daddy?" I laughed like a damn witch in front of him. Kung wala akong sinasandalan ay baka nahulog na ako. He was just there watching me like I am stupid for not believing him, he's not serious right?... I scoffed when I realize, he is, "you're offending me, mukha ba akong walang pera sa tingin mo?"

"For fuck's sake, I don't need your money. I can provide it on my own!" Angil ko sa kanya.

"Think of it as your allowance then!" I can hear desperation in his voice.  And it's irritating me! What is he, my father?! 

"What, are you kidding me?" 

"Then let me be your sugar daddy, or whatever you fucking call it!" He roared. I was just there, watching him losing his shit. Binabaliw niya rin ako, I don't get him! Ano ba talaga ang gusto niya?

"No..."

"What do you mean?" Mariin niyang saad. His eyes are turning into slits. Ang buong katawan ay hinarap na sa akin.

"I said no! You want to be my sugar daddy, right?" I trailed off. Nag-iwas ako nang tingin dahil hindi komportable sa aking sinabi. "Then my answer is no!"

Nagdilim ang kanyang tingin, hindi nagustuhan ang aking sinabi. Well, I didn't like what he's saying either! Ang desperado na niya ah. I joke a lot about finding a sugar daddy but it looks like with his action he can make my dream come true in just a snap.

"At hindi ba sinabi ko na sayo? Isang beses lang ang nangyari sa atin, at hindi na mauulit pa. You're my brother's friend! Bakit ba hindi mo maintindihan yun?" Naiinis na sa kanya.

"Ano ngayon, it's not as if it's your brother that I'll bed," he said with a straight face.

I raked my hair in annoyance, lahat nalang may sinasabi siya.
Tinignan niya lang ako, he looks please that he can make me feel this. He look like he'll eat the shit out of me, at tingin rin na sigurado akong hindi susunduin kung ano man ang gusto ko. 

"Tigilan mo na ako. I'll be with anyone who I want, basta hindi ikaw!"

I angrily open the car's door, sa inis ay pabalibag ko itong isinara. Sa haba ng paguusap namin ay hindi ko nakuha ang kanyang gusto. I felt like we were running in circles, because we both couldn't say what we wanted. And if ever we did... still it can't be.