a new era of me

~observations~

last chapter was meh but here we are 🫡

~September 2nd~

"LUNA!" I shouted half asleep as I practically fell off of my bed.

I had drool down my chin..

When I looked at her bed I noticed she was gone.

"What the fuck...." I muttered confused, rubbing my eyes.

I looked around the room and my eyes landed on my nightstand, there was a note and a chocolate muffin, my favorite.

On the note it read:

You wouldn't and I'm guessing couldn't wake up when I had tried, But I got you a muffin!

-Luna

Fucking shit I woke up late.

I groaned and got up.

I wanted to shower but clearly I didn't have enough time for that. I quickly changed and did my hair.

I did some light makeup, grabbed my bag, wand, and the muffin Luna gave me.

Today is the official first day.  It feels so weird walking to class without Percy.

Suddenly I felt an arm loop around mine, it was Pansy.

"Heyyy adalineee" She smiled.

"Hi pansyy" I sighed.

"What's wrong? You okay??" She asked concerned.

"Percy broke up with me." I sighed.

"Fuck him! He's an asshole!, I'm so sorry Adi.." She began. "You deserve a lot better." She continued.

"I love him.." I mumbled. 

I do love him, it hurts to love him but I'll still love him.

Why? I don't know.

Something's wrong with me.

In all ways.

Pansy sighed and we walked to class silently.

When we got to Potions, Pansy and I sat next to each other. I kinda zoned out the whole lesson. My mind being on Percy.

I never zone out.

Well maybe a few times when something's getting to me but anyways.

Percy consumed my thoughts every minute of the day.  I just wondered if we'd be better off without each other.  We're meant to be together is what I know, or is what I hope.

I don't think I can love anyone but him, maybe I was just too attached or maybe it was both.

I feel like a leech, who doesn't deserve love.

....

He's not a bad person.

He just..