a new era of me

~you only live once~

i loved last chapter, i just love adaline tbh

~September 5th~

I still can't get that repulsive view out of my head.

Percy and Daphne.

He told me multiple times that there's nothing to worry about. That she's nothing. That I'm being an overdramatic bitch.

And now he's out here kissing her. Kissing her how he's supposed to be kissing me.

In what world is that okay.

But you know what? Fuck him, fuck her, fuck everyone.

I'm going to get over him, him and his small dick.

I should've been the one to dump him. I should've been the one that called the shots. I should've been the one who broke his grimy nasty ass heart.

I got out of bed and did my nails and toe nails. It was like 5:10 am. Luna was somehow awake????? How the fuck.. She's something, not in a bad way. In a very good way, she's indescribable, yet again in a good way.

I love Luna honestly, she's always there.  Even if I can't
speak of it, she understands.

I'd never leave her or stop being friends with her, she's amazing.

She was there for me when no one else was. Even when she was getting called "Loony Lovegood" she was still there for me. In a quiet, listening type of way.

I got dressed quickly and began to read in our window nook.

It was calm and peaceful, the weather was alright I suppose.

Comfortable.

I had lost track of time as I read. It was 6:12 by now. I went down to the courtyard, it's early so no one would be there to bother me.  I could journal, peacefully.

I sat near Draco's dumb tree and just stared at the sky.  Then pulled out my journal and began writing.

I journaled, something I haven't done in a while. Percy would always say how foolish it was. And childish.

Life has just been so strange recently and I don't think it's fair.  Percy and Daphne.  Worst thing ever, ex boyfriend and ex best friend.  Amazeballs.  Hooray.

I don't tell anyone about this but, Daphne and I used to be best friends.  Everything was great at first, until she just dropped me out of nowhere.  We would often argue, I wont lie about that.  But we would get along after. She was a big reason I stayed quiet for a much longer period, even after getting friends.

I paused journaling and observed the space around me.

The small silence filled the area, the sounds of wind relaxing me. This is peace, this is comfort.

I picked up my journal and began writing again.

The weather is absolutely beautiful today, quiet, warm and cloudy. A good day. I can't stop thinking about Percy. I want to get over him but it's hard, I want to get out of this shell like body of mine and make friends, have fun. But without thinking of Percy.