a new era of me

~first day~

MATTHEO IS HEREEEE, i won't lie last chapter pissed me off because it took way longer to write since i literally have NOT been able to write but HES HERE

~September 1st~

Percy and I broke up last night, I don't think I know how to feel. A part of me is absolutely destroyed while the other part felt relieved, I hated that.

I love Percy.. He's the only one who shows me love and the only one who understands me.  Yes he does some bad shit but everyone does.

Draco and I were running to the train at this point, his dumbass forgot his purple shampoo so we had to look for it.  Which is the cause of us sprinting to the train.  Merlin, Draco always has to have a beauty emergency on important days.

"You're such an idiot!" I groaned. "We're gonna be so late because of you!" I continued as we ran.

"Oh shut up! If you weren't having a mental breakdown, you could've woken me up earlier!" He shot back giving me his stupid attitude.

He really had to bring that up??

Asshole.

We finally got to the train, we almost collapsed as we got inside. Draco went with his friends and I went with Luna.

As soon as I sat down she spoke up.

"I see you've been avoiding me." Luna began, she sounded upset.

"What? No??" I protested.

In reality, I kinda was ghosting her.

"Oh I see... Well.. Is everything okay?" She continued softly. "Percy said you've been hanging around with Draco's friends.. Just be careful, I care about you very much." She went on, tracing the lines on the table.

She wasn't talking about Draco, she was talking about the rest of them.

What pissed me off is Percy telling her. Not that I was hiding it from her, I just hate when Percy puts all my business out there.

"Of course Percy would say that." I replied scoffing trying to hide the sadness.

She looked concerned. "Is there something on between you two again?" She asking looking up from the table.

That little "again" pissed me off, I wont lie about that.

She always knew everything because Percy never shuts his mouth.

"We broke up." I muttered.

She hummed in response and the rest of the train ride was quiet.

I could hear Draco and his friends laughing in another train cart.

I wish I sat with them, they seemed so fun. They are fun, so this sucks.

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We arrived at the castle, finally.

My stomach hurts so bad

We all had to go down to the great hall so they could sort the new first years into their houses.

Reminds me of when I got sorted.

Luna and I sat at the ravenclaw table, I could see Percy a few students down.

I looked down at the table and sighed.

It took a while for all of the new first years to get sorted, I was practically falling asleep.

We ate dinner which honestly, Im still hungry.

I cant lie I just picked at my food.  Percy stayed on my mind the whole time.  I miss him, I hate this.

The whole time it felt as it someone was gazing into the back of my head the whole time.

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We went up to our new dorms and my roommate was Luna, I'm glad it's someone I know.

Luna decorated her side of the dorm and it's so cute, I haven't decorated my side yet.

I ended up just taking a shower. I couldn't get Percy off of my mind, I needed something to take my mind off of him.

I caught myself looking through old pictures of us together. I felt my eyes watering.

I didn't do anything wrong and he breaks up with me, which happens to be the third time we've broken up.

This fucking sucks.

I began to cry, burying my face into my blanket.

I didn't want Luna to hear and tell Percy she's worried about me.

And I didn't want to worry her.

Not again.

Percy and I went through these stages where it had been like a list.

1. We're good

2. He's hiding things and I whine about it like an idiot.

3. Arguing

4. He apologizes

5. Arguing 24/7

6. We break up

A whole fucking list.

He was so good at first. We were so good at first. I'm not sure where it all went wrong but it did.

I still love him, I think I always will.

But sometimes I don't think it's love. I tend to shake that thought out of my head.

Fuck, I can't believe school started already.

Tomorrow's the official first day, I'm not excited one bit.

another short chapter, i didn't want to add to another day in this chapter so !!!! but what do we think?? -B