𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐝 // 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲

𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 20

𝐋𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: sienna's room
𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞: 6:39am
𝐏𝐎𝐕: Sienna

I woke up feeling groggy and tired for the final time this week. Cole was home today and my body filled with excitement before I remembered the dreadful conversation I had to endure later when I confronted Cole. I slumped back in my bed dreading seeing Cole. I planned to avoid him until i couldn't contain myself which wasn't going to be long.

His plane was due to land at Heathrow at 12 and I wished that I had another week to plan what I was going to say. Nerves filled my body and I rolled around in my bed, trying to get the thoughts out of my head.

I still hadn't returned any of Cole's messages and I knew he had sent more, however I had ignored them in the hopes he would get the message to leave me alone. I wish he could read my mind all the way from Tenerife.

I got dressed and decided to make an effort if I was going to confront the love of my life who was now someone who hurt me.

I still had to talk to Levi and end things and decided to do it before seeing Cole later. I felt guilty and hoped he didn't think I had been leading him on.

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I decided to meet Levi on a walk instead of a cafe as I thought it might be too public to let someone down. It felt as though my mind was making it more overdramatic than it was but I ignored all the doubtful thoughts that were telling me to give it another go with levi or that maybe Cole had moved on.

"Hey your message seemed urgent is everything okay" Levi questioned. His words snapped me out of my trance and I suddenly remembered that I wasn't at home in my own thoughts and that I was walking along the river with Levi.

"No- well yes- maybe-" I stammered, trying to get all my words out at once. I sighed and retired what I wanted to say.

"Look, Levi, I think you're great and you deserve a girl who can love you and be genuine with you and im sorry I can't be that girl"

He looked at me, hurt and confused. My heart sank a little looking at his expression. I felt awful and a pang of guilt hit me.

"What do you mean?"

I sighed and explained what I had said before but in more detail.

"Someone else has my heart right now and I can't be with you"

It went surprisingly well and I think Levi took it as well as he could. Our conversation ended with a hug and decided to still be close friends. I hoped and wished that it wouldn't be awkward between us at training or at gatherings and I told myself to shove it to the back of my mind while I focused on getting home and ready to see him. Cole.

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I paced in my living room waiting for Cole to knock at the door, wondering how to greet him and start the conversation. We were so close to making it official between us and then he goes and pulls something like this. Tears welled up in my eyes and I cursed myself for being so emotional over a boy.

The doorbell rang throughout the house and I took a deep breath before opening the door.

"Afternoon, parcel for Miss James?" a postman stood at the door and a part of me felt relief that it wasn't Cole but a part of me also wished I could get it over and done with.

I signed for the parcel and as I shut the door, I groaned in annoyance.

Just as I was about to sit on the sofa, the doorbell rang again. I groaned again in annoyance and trudged towards the front door.

As I opened the front door, a tall figure stood there with a smile on his face, I instantly recognised the familiar scent of Cole's aftershave and opened the door wider to let him in.

He went in for a hug and I hesitated before putting my arms round him. I knew he could tell that I was reserved and he pulled away with a confused expression plastered on his face. I followed him to the living room where I sat next to him on the sofa. He took a deep breath and it was silent for a while.

Cole broke the silence and asked how I was. I mumbled a quick good and the conversation ended there. I saw Cole's smile falter in the corner of my eye but I knew I had to stay true to myself and not give into my heart. I hated how much of an affect he was having on me.

"How was your holiday then" I surprised myself that my mouth had decided to speak and I waited for Cole's reply

"Yeah it was um, good thankyou"

The tension in the room was through the roof and out of the corner of my eye, I saw reece come down the stairs, sense the tension and turned around and went straight back upstairs, not wanting to get involved.

"So um, who's the blonde girl you were with" I again, surprised myself with how straight up I was, considering I hated confrontation.

"Just a family friend" his answer was short and brief and I could tell that he wanted to avoid the situation as much as possible. I decided to leave it and back off since the tension was getting uncomfortable.

Cole stood up and left, leaving an item on the table as he left the living room. I heard the door shut forcefully and I let a tear run down my cheek.

I picked up the item that was on the table and it was a silver necklace with the initial 'S' engraved on it with a love heart. I decided to place it back on the table and look at it properly when my emotions weren't so high. I had a deep feeling that it was over between me and Cole and I felt my heart shattering at the thought of losing the man I loved so suddenly to another girl.