Green With Envy || Yoonmin

26; "Snooze"

Yoongi is helpless. He didn't have any other choice but to do as Namjoon said. He has bought him tickets for this stupid ass festival thing. Honestly, Yoongi doesn't even know what it is. He just went so Namjoon would shut up about it. Apparently, it's this thing hosted by an underground artist that's supposed to help artists find their worth and start their career. Yoongi doesn't see any use in this, even if he's also un underground rapper (and less popular than you might thing he is), he still isn't new to this industry. To be honest, Yoongi just went because he does look up to the artist who will be the host.

Yoongi spent the whole two hours on his phone, ignoring every word this artist had said. It's pretty obvious that Yoongi would already know all about it. He met some of his rapper friends and took pictures with some others he looked up too. On the way out, it was pretty crowded since everyone was trying to get out at the same time, so he stood in the line for a few minutes.

And that's when he hears some girls talking about some kind of dancer. He wouldn't have given a fuck if his phone was charged and he'd just ignore them, but since he had nothing better to do, he decided to listen.

"I know, right? They say he's going to move to Seoul soon, though." One of the gurls says.

"What a bummer! All his performances won't be happening in Busan anymore. Do you think his Busan fans would travel to Seoul just to attend his performance?"

"It's possible. After all, he's the biggest dancer in Korea right now,"

"Did you hear about the rumors? It can't be true, can it?"

"The dating rumors? Of course it's fake. Jimin said he's not looking to date any girl anytime soon. And c'mon, do you really believe he likes girls?" Both of the girls burst out laughing, covering their mouths with their hands.

Wait, Jimin? As in his Jimin?

The line moves forward a bit, but Yoongi is just frozen in his place. How many dancer Jimins are there in Busan? What are the chances?

"Are you talking about Park Jimin?" He asks, moving closer to the two girls. "Uh, yes? Jimin, aka the biggest dancer and influencer in Busan right now,"

"Dancer? Influencer?"

They give Yoongi a dirty look, "Are you like retarded? Do you not know who Jimin is?" then they start laughing again as if it's the funniest thing ever. "Do you know where he lives?" Yoongi asks, a little bit of hope beating into his heart. Maybe this is it. He'll finally meet Jimin after all this time. This all feels like a dream, and if it is, Yoongi never wants to wake up.

"He lives in the Samyoung appartments in Haeundae. But don't be one of those freaks who show up at his house. Seriously, don't. It's fucked up." Yoongi nodded to the girls, knowing damn well he is going to do the exact opposite.

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Home. It's where Yoongi should feel the freest, the most like himself, and it's the place where Yoongi should look forward to coming back to after a long day of running errands. But right now, the last thing he wants is to spend another day with Namjoon, aka the person he shares a house with, who won't just stop nagging his to write a new song. Instead of ignoring Namjoon all day, or just fighting and yelling back about how he doesn't want to keep doing this, Yoongi has a better idea.

Maybe Namjoon is right, Yoongi is nothing without music. But if music meant draining himself everyday just to please Namjoon and his fans, then he'd rather die than follow his dream. So, for the last time, Yoongi will write a song. A song where he will truly just be transparent and honest in.

He can't help but smile every time he remembers Jimin. Jimin, who is now a dancer. Jimin who has worked hard during high school days to be a dancer. Jimin, who now, has made his dream come true, who achieved his goal, who is actually doing way better than Yoongi thought. He's proud, he really beyond imagination is. Jimin actually did what he wanted to do in life. He didn't just lose hope, even after everything that has happened in high school, even after losing the closest person to his heart. He didn't give up despite his mental health and the hatred he felt towards himself. Yoongi can't believe Jimin is okay; it's truly hard to believe. It's crazy how happy Yoongi is right now. He never felt this much happiness and emotions ever, even when he made his debut and got positive feedback and quiet literally reached his dream. This moment is totally different. This moment is all about Jimin, and not him. And to see Jimin do so well in life after Yoongi thought he'd live in misery forever knowing he broke Taehyung's promise and Jimin might be going through the hardest time of his life.

He is going to meet Jimin and live up to his promise no matter what. First thing in the morning, he's driving to Jimin's house and searching every building and every apartment if he had to. This time, he will not let Jimin go.

So, until tomorrow, he prepares for a long night of writing and producing a song. A song that will be as deep and personal as possible. A song where Yoongi will finally write about himself and about his true emotions and thoughts. Therefore, he turns on his computer and starts typing.

He titles this one, "Snooze".

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You, who's dreaming while looking at me
I'm always here behind you, so don't worry too much
If you're afraid to crash, I'll willingly receive you
So you don't suffer like I did
You, who sacrifice your sleep for your dreams, it's okay to rest
For today, don't even dream
When you silently give me a light smile
Only then, I feel a little relieved

It may be very difficult, this road I've walked on
It may have looked like a flower path
But, know that it was a thorny path with enemies everywherе
I hope you never forgеt the one who throw flowers on the road for you
When you're laughing, don't forget the one who cries
'Cause they live a day on your smile
When you get erased in the repeating schedule
It's okay to feel overwhelmed, if it's too much for you, you can take a little rest
Cry out loud when the world gets ugly
When the hand that greeted you turned into a pointing finger
You can take a deep sigh and shout "This shit is fucked up"
Because you are no different from anyone else
Why did you choose this painful and lonely road
Never forget the reason, even if time passes
I hope your dream won't just be left as a dream
I'll cheer you on anytime, anywhere

This is a battlefield without gunshots
Your colleagues are also your enemies
The cruel and beautiful good and evil that numbers determines
If I can't kill others, I must die
This scene isn't a ring, so why kill someone?
When you hate something you simply used to like
When wishes are blown away by the wind
It's okay, everything becomes memories and lessons when you look past it
Don't forget, the world isn't very patient
Don't ever laugh at other people's controversies
Because that might happen to you someday
Your success will be your leash and shackles
The feeling of walking on a tightrope will suffocate you
Just laugh out loud, as if the world is leaving
Just hold on
Wherever you are
I hope your dream won't just be left as a dream
I'll cheer you on anytime, anywhere

When the petals wither and fall
I'll cover you good night
When the fog goes away
I'm leaving, bye
Blooming dream

Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay
Everything will be okay, everything will be okay

Dream, I will be there for you in your creation 'til the end of your life
Dream, Be generous, wherever you might be
Dream, You will fully bloom, after all the hardships
Dream, The beginning may be humble, but the future will be prosperous

You, who's dreaming while looking at me
I'm always here behind you, so don't worry too much
If you're afraid to crash, I'll willingly receive you
So you don't suffer like I did
You, who sacrifice your sleep for your dreams, it's okay to rest
For today, don't even dream
When you silently give me a light smile
Only then, I feel a little relieved

Dream

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A/N: I cried a Lil writing this :)
(Ps. Please read the song cause it plays an important part in this chapter and the next chapter)